I'm a married 40 yr old who has struggled with this for as long as I can remember. I am very much in the closet except for her online. I worry that outing myself to my wife will risk my family life which is extremely important to me. I want to tell her and for her to except this but I fear the worst. If I thought it would go well I think I would have done it by now. It is definitely getting harder to keep this in!

I have memories of being a young boy and wanting to dress like a girl and wanting to wear tights and play with dolls. As I grew older I did indulge in tights, then pantyhose and dresses like others. I would have loved to grow up now instead of the 80s and 90s as I feel parents have more acceptance these days.

I have purged many times and foundly think of the shoes, boots, dresses and the like I have thrown away. My current stash has Ben with me for a year now and I constantly try to add to my collection. I travel for work quite often and do find my self looking for all things girly! That is my Me time that I truly enjoy!

I hope that 2015 will find me getting out possibly and at least meeting others in the same boat as I. I look forward to growing my wardrobe but am running out of hiding places!

I would have been so happy to have dressed up yesterday in a new dress and had the opportunity to ring in the new year all pretty! One can dream! Maybe some other year!

Thanks All!

Stephanielawrence
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Hi Stephanie,

A big Aussie welcome to Susan's family. It's good of you to drop in and say "Hi". Hope you like it here, and you stay for a while.

There is a mountain of information, resources and friendship waiting for you here, you just need to jump in start talking and ask any question you like. You're quite safe here and we are very accepting.

Starting out on any journey is always full of unknowns. And the more unknowns that become knowns, the better the journey. Perhaps a chat with a gender therapist can get you going own hat process. To be forearmed is to be forewarned.

Oh; and by the way. Dreams do come true. You then just have to dream bigger ones.

Looking forward to hearing more of your story in time to come, but in the meantime, be safe, well and happy.

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Catherine

Hi Stephanie 

Welcome to Susan's    Glad to have you here, join on in the fun

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V M

Hi Stephanie!
Welcome to Susan's - thanks for sharing a bit about yourself
Might be an idea to talk to a counsellor or therapist before you start telling your wife - that would at least give you a chance to sort out what it all means for you and to give you some idea of what lies ahead.

Bienvenue,  I'm Stephaniec

Hello Stephanielawrence and welcome to Susan's. Telling the wife is scary. My wife was shocked  when I told her that dress in women's clothing.  We are married for twenty-five. It took patience and educating her about what it is to be transgender. Now she supports me 100%. We do alot of things together. This was 9 1/2 years ago and we've never been happier.