OMG! I have some hope now! I just started figuring things out about a month ago. I turn 61 in June. 'She' inside is still just a flouncy teen/pre-teen, with no name of her own. I always bordered a bit in appearance, but def believe Im showing my age and gender these days, and part of my despair has been over having taken so long that I could never now be more than 'old guy pretending'. But, maybe, just maybe....