I've always pondered if i began too early. I'll make my long story short....

I began to have feelings that were weird in my teen years but i couldn't put my finger on it. When i was 17 i had my first manicure and it felt awesome. I wore my first dress as gag for Halloween. I went as a european woman. Of course no offense to any europeans out there. I didn't shave my legs. Anyways, When i was 28, the office that i work for was having a Halloween contest. The winner would win $100 gift card. I had my eye on the prize. I decided to dress as a woman but i wanted to do it so well that i would be unrecognizable. I learned everything i needed to. But when i put on my first wig and my first outfit as well as Make up. I couldn't stop looking at the mirror and for the first time i felt pretty, it was the first time i felt gorgeous. It was the first time i felt like i saw the real me. Who knew that at the time a Halloween costume introduced myself to the real me.

My mom thought for the longest time that i was a weirdo. I didn't get along with her for most of my life. We butted heads a lot of the time. At age 30 i began the journey of gastric bypass surgery. At that point i was a monstrous 300 pounds.I needed to make a change by 2012 at the age of 31 i ended up getting the surgery. During my recovery process i began dating someone. That relationship sadly only last 5 months. I felt used and I felt like i was living a lie. When i broke up with my ex in anger i had told her that she had never tried at all to make me feel like a "man". At the time she might've realized that maybe i was too much of a girl and maybe she didn't want to tell me. Anyway, I also ended confessing to her that before i met her i was in the process of having a sex change. And thanks to her i realized that i shouldn't have changed course. I lost more weight and I did a ton of research, and finally at the awesome age of 33 i did everything on my to do list. I lost my virginity, I had been seeing a therapist. And i've been putting my life into perspective.

Finally in July of 2014, I began taking hormones. And i have not regretted anything at all. I'm very pleased with my life. But sometimes i feel like i've might've of started too early but i don't feel that way but it is a thought that comes accross my head. At this moment I spend 99 percent of my day dressed as a female because it is who i truly am and i am tired to hiding the real me from the world. My parents and my brother have gotten used to me dressing this way. But at almost 7 months on hormones i've had my breast began to "bud" so i've gotten to embarrassed to wear men's clothing. I began to dress female full time since this past September. Does anyone who read this agree i might of started too early?

so... did you win that Halloween party reward?

Honestly, I felt like you didn't start too early. If anything I think you got off the starting line late. Not to bash anyone one on here who transitioned after their 30's but I feel that the sooner you realize what you are the better life will be. Now I know most people had to wait due to wait for multiple reasons and that's understandable. Everyone is different. For you, you had some life plans that needed fixing/ achieving first. So it may have taken you longer to realize it than when you did.

To me you showed the signs when you were in the 20's and you could have have gone through than. Obviously the world had different plans for you, but I'm glad you are finally on the correct rails.

Good luck with the transformation. Become the real you, you've always desired. 

Marty (Sammi)

Thank you so much, and hell yes i won that prize.

When i walked up to my general manager he didn't recognize me until i spoke.

That in itself felt awesome. But because i was morbidly obese. I didn't care about the world nor myself. At some point i felt like i needed to take control of my life because everyone around me was moving on with their life. Getting a girlfriend/boyfriend and i was getting left behind.

Don't worry - I started RLE just over a year ago at the tender age of 71!
And with a daily dose on oestrogen valeraete and a four weekly jab of prostab (second one this morning) I still look more male than female.
It's a long haul.

Forget the costume!  Did you lose the weight?  I'm in a similar boat as I'm more like 350, but losing it.  Good luck in your process.  Hugs!

Yes, i lost most of my weight thanks to Gastric Bypass. I'm went down to 215 but i gained 20. I've been at 235 for about a year and a half.

Thank you for much for your support.

^well that partially hits home for me. I'm siting around 250 myself. Now I don't plan on having surgery to get skinny but I am trying lose weight the old fashioned way, by eating healthy. When I started this year I was around 257. My goal is to lose 50 lbs this year (Or more hopefully) so that once I start transitioning, I can look good lol.

My advice for trying to lose the weight is by eating half of what I'd normally get. Also by trying to eat foods that are better for the body is what I'm eating too.  My goal of losing the weight is taking it day by day. I have given myself all year to lose 50 lbs. So to me that's 1 pound a week, which by all methods is obtainable and and a fairly easy goal. So I strive to keep it going down every day, but there are some days that jump you back up 5 lbs by one day of miss eating.

I hope you can continue to lose the weight, hopefully similar to what I suggested. If that fails you can do the surgery again, as it seems to have worked for you the first time. Good luck