If you had asked me prior to my "melt down" if I was (or could be) trans, I'd have denied it.

No, I'm a guy. A normal, standard-issue "manly man", hetero, likes working on cars, etc. And the whole time I would be saying this, I'd be thinking, "What a load of cr*p! I sure hope he believes me! I don't know what it is, but I just KNOW that I'm not in the right place, doing the right thing...although I do know that most men DO these things..."

8 months later, I began to tentatively ask questions about possibly being MtF...and a friend of mine gave me a pair of breast forms, with the instructions to temporarily use one of the wife's bras; she said, "if you are trans, they'll be the neatest thing you've ever done. If you're not, it'll freak you out."

I loved it, just like you enjoy cross-dressing:

QuoteI enjoy putting on dresses, wearing make-up, and looking pretty. Some enjoy putting on suits, feeling muscular, or playing sports. That's what I couldn't understand. It just never made sense because it was just something I felt was a necessary part of being a man. It's all stuff that I really took for granted and never saw a reason why. Now you folks have shown me it's something that isn't necessarily that's for me, but for others it's the world. 

Doing "manly things" for the sake of keeping up a manly appearance is interesting. That's why I would go camping, working on cars, etc...to keep up the act of being a "guy".

QuoteI have thought a good deal on the cross-dressing thing. Sure if this all turns out to be not what I had hoped for, I'd love to become a cross-dresser. The only problem with dressing in a woman's clothing is that I sometimes feel like a fake. Wearing a bra that doesn't fit well gives me an unrealistic image of myself. I try than to imagine what I'd look like with a good bra that fits me and shows off what I have, rather than the opposite.

Feeling like a fake is actually quite common, especially in early transitioners. It's because there are still many areas in your mind that are still focused on trying to be a dude still, and these areas (for lack of a better word) will take time to align with the urge to transition.

No one is "fake", as long as you are presenting yourself as you truly are.

Wow, this is kind of basically what I am trying to convey. I guess I'm still living as a fake me. I need to learn to control my thoughts, and start living the way I that I am. I do want to become a woman and I can see that this was important for me to discover myself.

Quote from: CaptFido87 on January 27, 2015, 09:02:19 PM
Wow, this is kind of basically what I am trying to convey. I guess I'm still living as a fake me. I need to learn to control my thoughts, and start living the way I that I am. I do want to become a woman and I can see that this was important for me to discover myself.

*hugs*

Nice to have met you, Sammi.

I am also looking to transition from male to female looking for a physician who is transgender friendly to talk about hormones in the kent ohio are any help would be appreciated

Quote from: Kayla_Lynn_Martin on January 27, 2015, 10:13:29 PM
I am also looking to transition from male to female looking for a physician who is transgender friendly to talk about hormones in the kent ohio are any help would be appreciated

Marty, you may want to try experimenting more with your crossdressing before starting transition. Build up confidence in yourself, get some good fitting clothes and accessories, and see how that works for you. It is much easier on the wallet as well  Good luck!

Quote from: Kayla_Lynn_Martin on January 27, 2015, 10:13:29 PM
I am also looking to transition from male to female looking for a physician who is transgender friendly to talk about hormones in the kent ohio are any help would be appreciated

Welcome to Susan's, our home away from home!

I am not from Ohio, but I would suggest you start a new thread, perhaps in "Hormone Replacement Therapy" sub-forum. (Link is provided)

Or perhaps in the "Male to Female" sub-forum (Link is provided).

In either case, be sure to put something like "HRT in Kent OH" so we know what you're asking for prior to clicking on it. Oh, and maybe an introduction in that forum...we like to know about people.

Again, welcome! And hope to hear from you!

Quote from: Beth Andrea on January 27, 2015, 08:41:21 PM
8 months later, I began to tentatively ask questions about possibly being MtF...and a friend of mine gave me a pair of breast forms, with the instructions to temporarily use one of the wife's bras; she said, "if you are trans, they'll be the neatest thing you've ever done. If you're not, it'll freak you out."

I loved it, just like you enjoy cross-dressing

Well, no one gave me a binder (someone did offer to let me try their's though). But the first time I wore one it felt great and now I wouldn't wanna be around people without it. On the other hand what I honestly consider the neatest thing I've done is wear the men's national dress to my school's nationak day celebration. So yeah the FtM side is pretty much the same as it is for MtFs. I still have my doubts but things like this make it at least momentarily clear for me.