Hey everyone. Just wondering how people's experiences have been in relation to mine.
I went into college undecided between engineering and psychology. But leaning towards engineering. My first semester I ditched both but decided to stay in the sciences, thought psych was beneath me and was easy and nothing more than common sense. I ended up studying physics. And I do love physics, plans of going on to grad school in theoretical physics. Or at least that was the very certain plan until a couple of months ago when all this trans stuff hit me. Now, I'm much less sure. I still like physics, but maybe a little less? I'm not as enthusiastic about it anymore. My interest in psych however has increased. Picked up an interest in gender studies but that probably isn't surprising. I've always been interested in abnormal psych (go figure, I've always tried to find some mental disorder in me) and neuroscience, and maybe I'm more interested in the biology of the brain now.
I've always been interested in almost everything, so it's not like all of a sudden I'm interested in a whole bunch of stuff. I know I want to be an academic or a researcher, that hasn't changed. I'm just wondering whether my change in interests could be reflective of something more. I can't help but think I les myself toward the most "masculine" of study fields I could find (in my year, I'm the only "female" studying physics), and that now I'm saying well maybe this isn't actually it for me. A bit worrying because it's my last semester and I need to figure out what I'm going to do next..
Just wanna know if anyone's found themselves in a similar situation? Or maybe I'm just thinking into this a bit too much, it worries me that I'm not dead set on getting my PhD in theoretical physics anymore. Though I still really want to. It's weird, I don't know.