Well im not new here buts its been so long it feels like it. My name is ronnie and im trapped in the wrong body,ive felt like this since I can remember being alive from putting on my mums tights at the age of about 5 to wearing womens underwear tights the lot under my school uniform to having bits of my womens underwear stashed all over our house,ive been feeling wrong a long time. Im currently 43 with a partner of 25 years have 2 kids 19 & 20 and 4 stepkids. Im here cos after all these years of not having the courage to do what I know I need to do im finally going ahead with seeing doc about becoming who I really am.i did this a few years ago went to the physic and was waiting for referal in london but I never followed through cos of problems with my then 15 yr old son,he needed a strong dad at the time. Now I feel its the right time. I know the problems its gonna cause my partner will disown me my kids will be disgusted my work colleauges will be shocked god knows what my family will say but ive got to do it. I admire the people on here who have been through it all,no one but us knows how we feel and the sacrifices we have to make,im crapping myself.... Anyway ive gone on too much as it is I will bump into you all here and there on this site cos im not gona get through this on my own and I need to be around people who understand x