Hey everyone, Im Jesse and from Ontario Canada! I have been reading through the forms for a couple weeks now and I am amazed at how wonderful and supporting you all are. Im currently going through a realization in my life which is kinda hard. Iv always known I was Transgender(FTM) when I watch videos of transmen I get real happy and think "yes this is me and I can so relate" but I dont really seem to fit in with it... I did some research and I believe Im what people call Transqueer and Bigender? A couple days I will go feeling really manly and feel like a guy, but then I will go through a couple days feeling really fem.. Its real confusing. I hate having breasts, yet Im ok with what I have down there.
Is there anyone on here that has a similar situation or? Is it possible to have breast removal and take little T to become somewhat manlier but still stay kinda fem? What makes this the hardest is Iv been married to a straight man for almost 7 years and we have 2 young sons together. Hes very supporting and says he loves me no matter what my decisions are.
Thanks to everyone who replies!

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Hi Jess, welcome to Susans!

It is very possible to get breast removal and get on a small dose of T while retaining some of your femininity.  I imagine it is easier to do the first one than the second because of doctor's concerns.  I advise researching the surgeons and endos who could give you what you're looking for.  Therapy might even be a good route to take as well.  I know Dr. Garramone (top surgeon) will do top surgery with a letter.  I'm getting my breasts removed by him and still plan on living as a female, so it's possible.

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Welcome Jesse to Susan's family

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Welcome Jesse


I'm in Ottawa...nice to see someone else from Ontario.

Hi Jesse and welcome to Susan's. There's other folks here more qualified than I who may answer some of your questions. Whatever path you choose I wish you the best.

Hi Jesse, welcome to Susan's Place! I'm near Boston. Grab a comfy chair, we always have room for new friends! See you around the site!

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Hi Jesse,

Welcome here !

I'm a bit in the same questions concerning what is possible when your are non binary and I discover that the more I learn, the more what I want seems possible. I hope it'll be the same for you !

see you here and there 

welcome to susan's, jesse! i am from ontario as well.

Hey there Jesse.

Good to see you here, and welcome. I have no doubt the amazing people here will all be able to help you find the information needed to make the right decision for you. If you ever have questions regarding any of the changes Testosterone makes, feel free to ask, and I'm more than happy to discuss how well the feminine aspects are retained and look into those for you.