How did you imagine yourself as a grownup of your birth gender?

When the truth started to rear it's ugly head, I'd be watching westerns and think, See, it may not be all bad to be a woman. At least you get to be captured by Indians and rescued by sexy cowboys.
So, when I tried to imagine it, I saw myself in the old west, in a frilly dress fluttering my eyelashes at the likes of Black Bart and Jesse James (I love bad boys).
I literally believed I would turn into that when I grew up. I knew it was the 20th century, yet I still believed I would be somehow transported to a land of cattle ranches and gunslingers.
Imagine my surprise upon turning 18, and not a tumbleweed in sight!

I saw myself as a 19th century gentleman with a cane. Then a Thomas Chatterton type attic bound genius. Eventually I settled on this.

*whispers*  Birth -sex- .... *tease Nero*


you mean I have to grow up? O.O

I always saw myself as that eclectic art teacher everyone loves, with the funky clothes and pins and stuff.

As a kid, I imagined that I'd be a famous rock star LOL 

I am making my living playing music, so it all turned out OK. You've probably never heard of me though 

zythyra

Just the pretty girl next door.

Quote from: Lori on November 02, 2007, 09:17:40 AM
Just the pretty girl next door.

Yea, exactly. As a child, I was SO convinced I was going to die, that I had trouble picturing myself as an adult. So I mostly imagined myself as a typical girl of my age at the time, going through whatever girls went through then.

It's really only lately that I've actually been able to imagine, you know, a FUTURE, lol.

And for some insane reason, I see myself as a single mom raising a young son (god knows how I end up with a child, but I do), being absolutely exhausted running around trying to manage both taking care of him and a job (clerical, assistant... not technical)... and loving every second of it.

~Kate~

I never envisioned myself as my birth gender. Even when I tried, I couldn't. In school, I think at about age 11 or 12, we were supposed to write an essay about what we'd be like when we were grown up. I drew a blank on the gender stuff and couldn't see myself as a grown female. Instead, I wrote an essay about the cool technogadgets we'd have when I grew up.

I could see myself as a grown man though. I turned out to be much shorter than I was in my visions

Dennis

I tried not to think of it.  The closest I came to that was thinking, "I guess it's a good thing I'm a guy because men grow old more gracefully than women."  Can you say, "sour grapes?"

Future?  What's that

I never saw myself as an adult, I could not.  It was impossible to accept.

Sarah L.

Professionally I wanted to study the behavior of animals for a very long time. I loved those nature films and wanted to be one of those ethologists (is that the word? I looked it up but I don't know what it is called in English).
Pretty gender-neutral I think.

I didn't think a lot about my personal future. In a rather vague way I imagined that I would marry eventually (since that's what you do when you grow up) and have kids (same reason plus I always liked the thought of having children).

How did I envision myself as a grownup in my birth sex?  Believe it or not, as a Texas Ranger (law enforcement, not baseball player).  Now don't ask me how a kid growing up in Georgia came up with that one but that was back in the days of the motto "One riot, one Ranger" and before they became just another part of the Texas Department of Public Safety.

Quote from: Nero on November 02, 2007, 05:24:34 AM
...I still believed I would be somehow transported to a land of cattle ranches and gunslingers.

ROFL  How do you think I got the nickname Miss Kitty here on Susan's many years ago.

Beverly

Now retired I still do not know what I want to be when I grow up.

i could never picture myself as my birth gender. but when i was little i saw myself as a tall man with a wife and kids. never really could settle on a job though.

WOW, I can't believe this. I have had the same feelings, I never imagined myself as an adult. When I was very little I wanted to be a mommy and thought that I would become one. That was until I was educated to the fact that I was a little boy. Then there were no goals for me. I'm amazed that I have lived this long. All through High School I thought I would be killed in Vietnam. I enlisted and was rejected, I knew a lot of guys who would have given their eye teeth for my classification. After that it was just following the steps that were outlined for men. You know, get married have kids, have a career and be a robot then die. I didn't even think about a career, it just fell into my lap. I'm still kind of that way, I don't know how to handle myself. I have got what I have wished for all my life and I never learned anything or got interested in anything. OK, I'm a little depressed today.
Sheila

How did you imagine yourself as a grownup of your birth gender?

Never! I was working on not being that way since day one...

I don't know.  My brain does not work like real peoples' do.

In a way, I saw myself as a housewife, but not overtly conscious of it.  I thought I would be a clerk or secretary - still not conscious of gender.  And I thought I might be a scientist, for as you all well know, I have a fabulously magnificent mind, however; at the time, I didn't think I was smart enough and I had no idea of how to accomplish it.  I also had fantasies of being a social worker and helping people.

When I became a teenager, I wanted to be Tarzan when I finished growing up.  And I wanted to be a writer or a musician.

What is strangest of all, my people, is that I am what I felt I was supposed to be; a mild mannered & nice person who works at a job that involves some science (computer science) and some clerical stuff. When I get irritated, I just leave or screw around and nobody bothers me much.

Posted on: November 02, 2007, 04:14:27 PM

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I have returned to my starting point. I have no gender. I am happy like when I was a young human.   

Quote from: Sheila on November 02, 2007, 02:50:48 PM
WOW, I can't believe this. I have had the same feelings, I never imagined myself as an adult. When I was very little I wanted to be a mommy and thought that I would become one. That was until I was educated to the fact that I was a little boy. Then there were no goals for me. I'm amazed that I have lived this long. All through High School I thought I would be killed in Vietnam. I enlisted and was rejected, I knew a lot of guys who would have given their eye teeth for my classification. After that it was just following the steps that were outlined for men. You know, get married have kids, have a career and be a robot then die. I didn't even think about a career, it just fell into my lap. I'm still kind of that way, I don't know how to handle myself. I have got what I have wished for all my life and I never learned anything or got interested in anything. OK, I'm a little depressed today.
Sheila

Hehe I never could believe I would grow up to be anything.  I never looked to my future, because I was always planning on taking the easy way out of here for the current day.  And still somehow, like you, I'm still around and living

id be at the same university, doing the same degree, going onto the same carear in Law Enforcement. oh well, boring old me!
R

Quote from: Rebis on November 02, 2007, 04:16:43 PM
I have returned to my starting point. I have no gender. I am happy like when I was a young human.   

Reeb, you whacked the nail on the noggin, tis where I am.