Ok, so after spending all 3 years of my BA degree in design job hunting, I struck on a job in an off-liscence during my follow on course in an MA Degree. I've not been there for long, and it is my first job that's not been working in my dad's office or assisting my old martial arts club's kids classes. I thought I'd appreciate the part time work because of some back pocket cash for a few hours a week, but heres the thing... I hate it so much and its only been 2 weeks!
On the plus side:
- It's really close to home
- It's going on my CV as job experience
- It's not lots of hours
All good so far until I consider the following things
- My depression makes this hard for me to find the energy to go to work and study
- The store is in the roughest part of town, with drug addicted and very abusive customers
- My hours are the manic 'post work hour' shifts
- my stress levels have done nothing but skyrocket since I started, to the point of panic attacks
- The worsening depression is making me feel worse about myself, and the customers are such a rude bunch of shmuks when all I do is try my best
- I feel my confidence has taken a blow doing this
- Minimum wage does not feel enough to put up with this
It might seem like it shouldnt be a big deal but I've had a lot of stress lately and the job isnt helping me one bit. I only took it for some experience and trying to get some financial independence to give me a bit of a boost to my confidence but its done the opposite entirely.
I don't actually have to stay in this job.I am fortunate enough that my family are willing to let me live with them and financially support me while I work on my MA. Depression has debilitated me for several years now and theyve been understanding of the fact I struggle with very basic things sometimes, and are trying to reduce the things I need to worry about. If I quit, they will still be willing to help me, they already know this job is getting me really upset.
Now, I'm not trying to rush into any reckless decisions. The owners who hired me knew I was doing an MA and have a history of depression and anxiety attacks, knew that before I even got the interview. I'm about to start my 3rd week, and I'm considering the fact it's impacting on my uni work and other areas of my life... I'm considering giving it another few weeks and if it doesn't improve, cutting my losses.
Thing is, since this is my first job, this is also my first time quitting if I do, so I need to know what to do. I'm not on a fixed term contract, I just have to make sure I give them a minimum of two weeks notice before I quit. I'm considering sticking it out for another few weeks before I hand any letters over or talk to the boss.
This was never going to be a long term gig really, but I feel my mental health and studies should come over a minimum wage job. Any advice would be great.
Jaybutterfly
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