Thanks for the welcome!
Here is a little about me; I started cross dressing as teenager, and it felt wonderful every time I did, but always was scared and ashamed of what I had done. I was always attracted to women, and got married to a wonderful girl that I did not confess my hidden secret. She found my stash 3 years latter and we soon got divorced. Move forward a few years, and met my 2nd wife, but this time confessed to her before marriage and she seemed ok with it, but I kept it mostly closeted to her. We had two wonderful boys who are grown now! After 20 years of marriage she decided I did not fulfill her needs and we divorced. Throughout this time I thought it would be wonderful to be a women, but knew that could not be right because I was a man
(guilt, shame). So I suppressed my thoughts and desires and proceeded on with life, and then met the love of my life. I did not tell her of my secret because I thought I had pushed those thoughts away. ( it seems stupid now that I could think that). About a month ago the light came on! I finally understood, that I am not a man who likes to wear women's clothes, I am a women who likes to wear women's clothes. Then a wonderful thing happened, I accepted myself for who I am and all the guilt and shame I carried from my past went away!! Wow an amazing feeling!!
thanks for listening, Stanna (btw i'm 58)