Well today went well. I had my first therapy session and it went pretty well. My therapist specializes in Trans issues so I was lucky to find her, and she is Trans herself so it eased my mind a little talking to someone who knows what it's like to be where I'm at in life right now. We mostly talked about my childhood and my family dynamics, my current situation, and some of my apprehensions about transition. By the end of it she got me to be more open about what I think and what I'm feeling and thinking about all this which is not easy. I have recognized intellectually that I'm Trans (MtF) and I guess on some level I've known that since I was quite young, but there's a part of me that's still struggling with self acceptance on a more deep emotional level. I'd say it went well, I go back in two weeks.

i'm glad it went well and that you've found a good therapist. hopefully you'll be able to reach self-acceptance soon as well as deal with the complicated emotional factors involved.

i'm here for support.

- jackson

It's wonderful to hear you found a good therapist. It's amazing how much just being open up to someone who understands are issues helps take a load that we have been caring for years in some cases off us. Good luck and Hugs.
Mariah

I was where you are about one year ago in knowing intellectually that I was transgender M2F but not ready to accept that part myself yet.  Give it time.  Having someone who understands to talk through the issues is such a relief.  After years of keeping parts of me hidden, to be able to talk about it all was a great relief. 

Good luck on your journey of self-discovery.  It is worth it!

Thanks everyone. It really is a relief to have someone to talk to. Hope all is well with all of you.