I always failed to imagine myself growing up into a woman. Occasionally the little girls who made up my social-set would have conversations about who they would marry and what he'd be like and I'd join in but really the adult man I was imagining was myself, and the adult woman who married him wasn't in the image of his life at all. I spent a lot of time fantasizing about what I'd do when I grew up, but I never visualized myself as a woman.

Quote from: Incubi on November 02, 2007, 12:46:17 PM
Professionally I wanted to study the behavior of animals for a very long time. I loved those nature films and wanted to be one of those ethologists (is that the word? I looked it up but I don't know what it is called in English).
Pretty gender-neutral I think.

Ethologist is the word, and I wanted to do that, too.

Quote from: Pica Pica on November 02, 2007, 05:49:08 PM

Quote from: Rebis on November 02, 2007, 04:16:43 PM
I have returned to my starting point. I have no gender. I am happy like when I was a young human.   

Reeb, you whacked the nail on the noggin, tis where I am.

Giant baby humans 

Just to clarify things a bit.  My birth gender was female.  My birth sex was male.  As a my birth sex, I NEVER imagined myself as a grown up; the mere idea of it was very traumatizing and painful.  I couldn't even conceive the idea of being "a man" with a deep voice, body hair, a wife and children.  That was just too much for me to bear!

Now, as my birth gender, I had many dreams.  I'd usually imagine myself to be a princess living in a castle with many servants (yeah, I was a snob even as a little girl.  LOL  ), a handsome prince.  I would watch cinderella almost every day.  I wanted to be her.  I wanted to kiss her prince and wear that glorious dress she wore to the dance.  I guess somehow, my dream came rather true... LOL 

tink

Quote from: Tink on November 02, 2007, 10:20:03 PM
I'd usually imagine myself to be a princess living in a castle with many servants (yeah, I was a snob even as a little girl.  LOL  ), a handsome prince.  I would watch cinderella almost every day.  I wanted to be her.  I wanted to kiss her prince and wear that glorious dress she wore to the dance.  I guess somehow, my dream came rather true... LOL 

tink

lmao   I dream I'm a prince all da time   ur right on the money princes

Quote from: Tink on November 02, 2007, 10:20:03 PM
Just to clarify things a bit.  My birth gender was female.  My birth sex was male. 

Ok. I got it, girls.

Quote from: Tink on November 02, 2007, 10:20:03 PM
Now, as my birth gender, I had many dreams.  I'd usually imagine myself to be a princess living in a castle with many servants (yeah, I was a snob even as a little girl.  LOL  ), a handsome prince.  I would watch cinderella almost every day.  I wanted to be her.  I wanted to kiss her prince and wear that glorious dress she wore to the dance.  I guess somehow, my dream came rather true... LOL 

tink

awww I love Cinderella. Mother read that to me every night when I was about 2. My first fairytale.  Also kind of has connotations for today, too.

i think i saw a job, and an education, but i certainly didnt see a man, my subcionsious never allowed me to think of wife, kids, etc, girls dont have wives do they?
R

Quote from: Rachael on November 03, 2007, 09:09:20 AM
i think i saw a job, and an education, but i certainly didnt see a man, my subcionsious never allowed me to think of wife, kids, etc, girls dont have wives do they?
R

That's odd.  Even though I could see myself doing things, I never saw myself with a family.  How could I imagine a spouse as a child?  There is no opposite of me.

Quote from: Rebis on November 03, 2007, 09:39:35 AM
There is no opposite of me.

Silly person. There is no opposite of anyone, and you wouldn't like it if there was one of you. You want your apposite. The one who is strikingly relevant and pertinant to you, well-adapted to you, who fits perfectly right next to you.

QuoteJust to clarify things a bit.  My birth gender was female.  My birth sex was male.  As a my birth sex, I NEVER imagined myself as a grown up; the mere idea of it was very traumatizing and painful.  I couldn't even conceive the idea of being "a man" with a deep voice, body hair, a wife and children.  That was just too much for me to bear!

Hi, Tink.

I have long said that I am not transsexual M to F.  I am transitioning F to F, making the body into F to match the inner me, also F.  That is  how I see myself.

I knew the career fields that i wanted to enter but I never truly saw myself as a person doing that.  I had no notions of family or not.

Wing Walker

Quote from: Doc on November 04, 2007, 03:40:12 PM

Quote from: Rebis on November 03, 2007, 09:39:35 AM
There is no opposite of me.

Silly person. There is no opposite of anyone, and you wouldn't like it if there was one of you. You want your apposite. The one who is strikingly relevant and pertinant to you, well-adapted to you, who fits perfectly right next to you.

Are you available?  [/giggle]

When I was 6 or 7 I used to pretend being one kind of female character or the other. I had a little buddy, her name was Christine. She went where ever I went. Like when I was playing little mermaid at the beach.

I had many imaginary games I played and even dressed the part, like a princess of the jungle, or queen of the desert dunes which I played-out in the sand pit behind the house. Or how about first woman astronaut on Mars, same sand pit? Of course these pretend games would not have been complete without an exotic critter or two of one kind or another like dragons, dinosaurs, and pteradactyles.

When I was about 10 I imagined what it would be like being a mom with children. Well, at least having 11 children under my roof through the years did materialise, nephews, nieces, three children of my own and 3 foster children around the time that I came out full time. I was looking after a friend's three children while she was undergoing treatment for some problems she was having at the time. I ended up looking after those children for two years.

I love children and there were often enough times I was babysitting for friends on the reservation next door to where I was living at the time. Now I have my soul mate who helps me through the humps and bumps of life. This I like the most, to be loved and cared for and feeling secure. I never had the fortune of having someone care for me. probably not since my mom was alive.

Cindy

                  As a child I never thought I would ever grow up to be a man. I thought my prayers would be answered and I would wake up one day with a girls body. I thought of that constantly, fantasizing about a genie in a bottle granting me a wish or trading bodies with girls I knew.  I just knew it would happen.......





beth

Not so good.
I imagined that I would be in a prison camp. Not for what I did, but for who I was. Bad, somehow. An affront to society. To be killed or at least kept away.
Later, I modified it. I would be a religious hermit.
Tara

Hi Tara
I can identify with some of what your say. All through my childhood I felt like I was not supposed to associate with the grownups, they were like gods and I didn't dare want to upset one of the gods.

When I grew up I thought that those in charge, the people that wear the suits were the gods, and I dared not piss them off, either.  I really don't know why I felt like that but I didn't come to realize that there really weren't any gods, that they are only people like the rest of us who bled the same color blood we did.

Needless to say I had a poor self image and sometimes I felt felt so alone, like an alien from another planet. I had a tendency to speak tentatively to people and most times I would get talked over like I wasn't there. That can be very annoying.

Cindy