Just curious...for those who are pre-everything...when you look in the mirror, do you see "a guy" or are you able to see "the girl"? (assuming you're mtf).

When I was pre-everything I only ever saw that guy staring back at me. I avoided the mirror as much as I could. There was nothing to suggest from my pre-everything reflection what was to come.

I go through periods where all I see is 'the girl me' when I look in the mirror; especially when I have just shaved.  I think my face does look a bit feminine in some regards: the upturned plump lips, long eyelashes, no balding.  But alas when I look in the mirror I am being selective in what I want to see.  I must admit there are times when I completely see my female self in the mirror and my heart skips a beat and I about cry in joy in knowing I am her:

I'm still at the start of everything but I did begin dressing at home and in stealth in public. A week or so ago I saw a man, but I never looked at him for long as the woman inside would shine through eventually.  I have always felt I have very feminine features. Now, since fully accepting myself, I only see a woman, and I look long and frequently, just to check. That incudes when my beard is showing and I'm dressed as a man. I see the male body/presentation, but my awareness of the woman I am can't be shaken. I just feel more happy when more of what I see is female, that's what assures me that this is right. That I am on a path to release myself and I have passed the point of no return. For me it has been a sea change. It has been just over a week, week and a half, but it feels like a lifetime! 

It's a mix bag for me. However, I must say as the months go by on HRT. I am seeing more of me than the man I used to be.
In my honest opinion, there's must be a level of self acceptance of who we truly are.

For me, I'm slowly accepting that I am trans as I have denied that fact it in the past.

Let's just celebrate who we are then the mirror will reflect that xoxo

April

Since I accepted myself, I've seen more of her than before.  Especially when I look myself in the eyes.  She is there.  Certainly when I see my hair or my body, the illusion is broken.  But the eyes.  They are the window to the soul.  And there she is.  [emoji73]

It really does vary.

I see him a lot, and I see me a lot too.

I like the mirror a lot more now than I did before though.

From almost any angle in the mirror I see female. I hate to harp on it but my jaw needs work, as does my nose and forehead. If I ignore those things along with my Adam's apple, I'm definately good to go. With makeup any "male" dissapears. In public people seem to think I'm female or are just plain confused. 

I still a bit of a guy in the mirror and it bothers me to no end. Slowly but surely, through time and patience, the HRT and improving makeup skills are slowly making the guy go away.