Hey girls,
Well, life has been so interesting. I never get clocked... but actually kind of stand out in the general crowd. That is good and bad. Even though I pass 100% I still have some issues with confidence.
I get messed with more by men than my wife does and she is a good looking chick.. I think maybe they think they have a chance with me or something.
Its weird to be on the other side and run around the mall shopping and other women don't even give me a second look.
A little girl pointed at me yesterday and said isn't she pretty mommy.. and her mom said she sure is.. we smiled at each other as we passed..
I was such a stud dude before.. you know being as masculine as I could to hide my identity so totally embracing the female side is a challenge.
I really like jeans and t shirts ...to be comfy.. but look best dressed up nicely.. Friends say I look like a wealthy business woman and no one will mess with me... ever. But I don't feel comfy in dress clothes.. heck I even hated suits as a dude.
Anyway, bought some new clothes at the mall for summer.. If I don't pull another 20lbs by summer I will be in trouble with clothing. I want to wear lightweight stuff and to look good need to work out more.
I bought the cutest leggings and comfy boots last night.. so excited about that. Also some awesome shirts that fit loose and have pretty colors ..
I like to wear my hair in a pony tail during day at work but if I go out I use a head band or just let it go.
I dried my hair in just 15 minutes yesterday. but makeup was a total disaster.. I was trying some new bronze stuff and I though it looked awefull... then did not know what to do and ran out of time and had to go out.
Anyway, other girls I know thought it looked good.. but I am particular and don't want to look pasty..maybe its because I am just not used to wearing makeup.
I love being who I am.. which is the real me.. but damn do guys have it made in the shade.... Still I would never go back to being a dude. although I do miss many things about it.. seriously. It was not much work compared to what we go through.
No way this is a choice. Wish more people could understand that.. its hard being a woman but a hell of a lot more fun!!! in many ways.
Dodie
