Hey guys first of all, I'm back again after a few years. 
Anyway, I'm getting ready to graduate and for the past year I've been looking into T - the problem is I'm scared of doubt and regret. I want the male's body part and most of the changes I'm okay with. I'm just extremely frustrated because some days I feel like I'm ready to get on T and some days I get scared. Then it's the fact of getting to a therapist and get the T I'm scared of as well. I do have some dysphoria and once in a while I do cry over my body but it's not super overwhelming. Now, I'm finding it hard to focus in school because all I think about is starting T and I feel as if my depression has gotten worse. I keep my head lowered a lot whenever I'm walking around at school. I can't seem to focus on school. I just don't know what to do anymore...

Welcome back

Going to a therapist can be daunting at first, but a good one is fantastic. No one can tell you what do to, obviously, but I do suggest you find someone to talk to. Talk to us here, find a good therapist or a close friend, someone that you can talk out your thoughts with. Just doing that can help you figure out what you want and what you need. There is no rush to start HRT if you are having some second thoughts, or even just confused thoughts. Its a big step and one that you want to be sure of before you start. T is pretty strong and after a very short amount of time you can have permanent changes.

I had a lot of the same doubts a few years ago that you do now, so I can say that I understand. I have been on T for over three years and it was one of the best things I have ever done for myself. After a few months of talking to a therapist and a few close friends I found that I was much more confident and sure of my choices.

Pop on in to the guys board when you feel like it.

Adam,
Welcome back to Susan's family

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Safe passage on your path

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