This has been a long time coming. I've tried really hard to fit in with the crowd here, but it's just not working. It's has nothing to do with anyone here, it's just the support I need, I will never truly find, because what I have and what I'm going through is extremely rare. And for me, I'm detransitioning from male to female.
Lastly, I just wanted to give my two cents on the whole using the word transgender instead of transsexual thing.
Think of the term Transgender as the Electromagnetic Spectrum. For example, you have colors, and radio frequencies. Each belong in the same spectrum, but each is so uniquely different. Colors don't act like radio frequencies, and visa-versa. And yet we don't say things like, "oh, red is electromagnetic!".
The same is true with Transgender. for example, Drag queens, and Transsexuals. Both fall under the same spectrum, but each is uniquely different.
Yes, I know these "labels" can limit you, but if you embrace them and make them your own, and teach people the difference, they can set you free.
For me, I am a proud, nerdy, geeky, dorky, Albino, hermaphrodite.
Anyways, I wish nothing but the best for everyone!
So, Good-bye!!!