I moved here in 2010 and not long after I started dreaming about the perfect girl named Ashley who was basically the female version of me. The dream eventually changed where I got to be a girl for a day (but the dream always ended before the day was up and the day reset for the next dream). Eventually the dream changed again to where I could choose to be either gender at any time, but I always chose female.
I was fully aware of these dreams and I thought they were a lot of fun, but being transgender wasn't a possibility for me until a few months after the last change in the dreams. Somehow all the right doors were opened for me and I started to accept the fact that I was trans. I didn't know what I wanted my name to be though. I ruled out Ashley because I'm supposed to find and date and marry her after all. One day I said wait a second. What if I'm Ashley? After all Ashley is the female version of me. What if the Ashley in my dreams was just trying to show me who I really was all along. I started out writing down my name and eventually decided to just go with it. The day I accepted my name as Ashley ended my dreams about her permanently. In some ways its disappointing because I actually felt like I was in a relationship.
I've been female in all my dreams ever since. One of my most recent dreams I married my ex-fiance, who I haven't seen in 13 years. We were both wearing white wedding dresses. This is unusual for me because I've always said I think white wedding dresses are boring as hell. I don't want the traditional wedding because they are all the same. Maybe I didn't want the traditional wedding because I would have ended up in a tux when I really wanted to wear the dress? Who knows. I've been single for 14 years so its not happening any time soon. It was a little scary though. She really hurt me more than once. She cheated on me and ultimately left me for a different guy who was twice our age. My current age is still younger than his age at the time. He was actually older than all 4 of her parents. Ultimately he left her when he found out that she cheated on him with yet another guy. The though of hooking up with her again scares me because I don't trust her.
Quote from: JynxRosalie on April 07, 2015, 11:18:09 PM
So I've noticed a pretty cool trend with my dreams lately. Normally when I dream, either my gender isn't ever seen or Im seen as a guy. But, recently, as I've accepted myself as being transgender I'm having more and more dreams where I am a woman. Last night I had the most lovely~ dream, where my girlfriend and I got married. We had the most beautiful dresses on and it was just....magnificent~. I don't have dreams where I'm expressly a female often, but it's happening more and I just thought that was cool, if not a bit upsetting when I wake up and realize it was just a dream.
Anyone else have this happen? I'm curious about it now 
