I don't like to say this too much but I used to have a bit of transphobia usually worse than my xenophobia which is a strange phobia I have still. I've been around people who make fun of women and transgender people for a long time. I don't usually blame people as society affects a bit of our perception of others. I usually write a lot (outside of this forum) and I came into terms that I had a bit of transphobia and this is what has made me so scared of of myself. I guess in my head I was becoming a monster when in reality I was only becoming more human. Recently I started to notice how supportive I am of transgender people and a lot of thanks to watching a youtuber that goes by Princessjoules..

It started so slowly by replying to hateful comments to understanding their fear of transgender people. I started realizing that it wasn't necessarily a bad thing being a transsexual.. I couldn't admit this phobia of mine because I was scared that it was my fault. I have a lot of respect and tolerance for people and I am now understanding how much of better person I am becoming by learning to accept myself. This all might sound strange but self acceptance is what I never had and what has kept me from understanding others. A lot of friends of mine saw me as the nicest person they ever met but I couldn't bring myself to believe this. I wanted to smile but it was hard when I felt the opposite.. I felt like a hateful person..

Well it's been 2 weeks and couple of days and I am feeling really great about this.. I feel so happy, I can finally draw again without feeling down or anything.. I feel like a better person and better yet my transphobia feels like I never had it.. The funny thing is that my other phobias are also greatly subsiding.. I bought some make up and tried it on.. I felt a bit of awkwardness but didn't feel like some of monster or anything.. It felt really good.. but I am still scared of my the people around me seeing me like this.. I think it is a big step. but I actually feel really to come out to everyone! but I am going to wait.. I think I am just to happy today.. XD

Self acceptance is probably the hardest struggle we face, some of us take longer some of us never can. Sounds like you are in a good place right now.

That's wonderful! My friends and family used to tell me what a good and likeable person I was but I could never resolve that with my internal self image. All I saw was a terrible person. Self acceptance for me was a magical moment and it touches me to read of that joy in your life.

Mhmm ^^ so glad to be here after so many years~
Time to go and work on my animations :3
Thanks for reading by the way