I don't worry about things I can't control.

so you dont worry that it might rain while your out and your washing is on the line? or that you might get attacked when walking home alone at night....
you are a very sstrage individual if you dont worry, worry is an emotion that keeps us safe, now i know im ignored by you melissa, but this isnt an attack, i just dont understand how you can deny posessing a involuntery emotion...
all humans worry, its a safety messure.
if you didnt worry about your surgery, well, i dont think there is a human alive who can do that, so your very special.
R

I think there are different degrees of worry Rachael. Sitting around uncomfortable at night worrying about the weather the next day because you are doing wash is different than noticing storm clouds while hanging clothes and worrying it may rain before they are dry.

I think Melissa means she doesn't do the former.  Everyone worries to some degree but it isn't healthy to be obsessed by worry or be completely without it.

GRS is major surgery and it is normal to be concerned.

yes,but melissa claimed she wasnt... which i find hard to belive, ill be honest, i will be terrified... ending up mutilated, dieing, and just generally finding some reason to worry, its my thing, but ive yet to meet someone whos not worried before going under the knife... EVER...
still, its her call. and hey, she might not...
i just want my parents to come around from thier denial enough to hold thier daughters hand when she needs them...
R

QuoteI just want my parents to come around from thier denial enough to hold thier daughters hand when she needs them...
R

I am sure they will but if they don't it is their loss of a beautiful daughter.




beth

im fairly positive they wouldnt be a part of thier mentally ill son mutliating himself further...
R

Quote from: Rachael on November 15, 2007, 12:25:24 PM
im fairly positive they wouldnt be a part of thier mentally ill son mutliating himself further...
R

Um yeah...I think my parents are still stuck on curing me as well.

Rachael, it's a shame your parents don't see that you look much happier and a more attractive person the way you are now....

Hi, Well I'm no super hero, well least ways no one has given me any hero biscuits lately. just a very vulnerable Cindy who wanted to go on with life without stepping off that cliff Kate mentioned earlier in another thread. I was scared crapless but when I make up my mind or commit myself to doin something I won't retreat from it. What did I have to worry about? Whats the worst can happen to you? Crap out during the surgery? So I won't never know what happened. Everything turned out fine outside of being some uncomfortable and sore for a while. Yes I am glad it's all behind me and it certainly wouldn't be in my list of better things to do again.

Cindy

while im worried about surgery, right now, any outcome is better than none, so im not scared, its also a long way off... but hey, when i get it, nothing is better than what i have now, and id settle for a nice flat jeanfitting crotch, if things went wrong, if i die? i just hope my gravestone says 'ping timeout'
R

Darn Right! Being afraid of having surgery of any kind is frightening. I believe that it's a normal feeling, No matter how much one looks forward to having it.
Heck! I was affraid of having a drill bit removed that was broken and embedded in my thumb. The thought of going to the hospital and have it taken out, terrified me. I have a severe case of 'White Coat Syndrome' as it is.    When it comes to this kind of thing,  I'm not tough at all. 

Hi

Quotewhile im worried about surgery, right now, any outcome is better than none, so im not scared, its also a long way off... but hey, when i get it, nothing is better than what i have now, and id settle for a nice flat jeanfitting crotch, if things went wrong, if i die? i just hope my gravestone says 'ping timeout'
R police

Way to go Rachel, must of been reading minds because that was the exact perspective or outlook I had decided to take on the surgery. Hun I believe you'll make it fine, you are ornery enough person to see it to it's completion. Any way if I am still around when you go for your surgery, I'll be with you in spirit..

Cindy

Quote from: cindybc on November 16, 2007, 01:11:07 PM
Hi

Quotewhile im worried about surgery, right now, any outcome is better than none, so im not scared, its also a long way off... but hey, when i get it, nothing is better than what i have now, and id settle for a nice flat jeanfitting crotch, if things went wrong, if i die? i just hope my gravestone says 'ping timeout'
R police

Way to go Rachel, must of been reading minds because that was the exact perspective or outlook I had decided to take on the surgery. Hun I believe you'll make it fine, you are ornery enough person to see it to it's completion. Any way if I am still around when you go for your surgery, I'll be with you in spirit..

Cindy

I feel exactely the same way Rachael and have been trying to get a referral for quite a few years now. I am traveling up to Scotland in the next few weeks and hope to come back with a NHS referral for GRS.

I have fullfilled all the HBSOC protocols and have lived a RLT for nearly 5 years and even years before that I presented as female. But I will still be nervious when the time gets closer..