Hello, everybody
like stated above, im confused aliitle bit. Ive decided to not hold back this inner feeling ive had my whole life.
and i would love some advice or help, please
thank you very much

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Mariah

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well as long as i can remember, ive always been a crossdresser, i loved the feel of womans clothes, made me feel sexy. but i as hide it from everybody i know, and just acted and dated girls to fly under everyones radar. but ive recently  made it my new year resolution to not fight this feelings anymore, and wish to transform in a woman. ive tried to tell my family but i know they wont support me or this decision.

Arikelenigma many of us have done exactly those things. Hide the fact we wore womans clothes because were afraid of what others my think or say despite how good and right we feel in them. We put up a good act of trying to be the normal guy even if it never felt right, but we gave it the old college try anyway. I'm glad you made a resolution to not fight your feelings and are working on them. You really could benefit from seeing a therapist who can help you along the way and help determine what the right path for you is. Family and friends can surprise us sometimes. Some can be very supportive and we never thought they would be and then those that we thought were ones that we never in a million years thought would have an issue with it do. Something I and many others learned early on is that we really do have to have a thick skin when it comes to what the people around us think. The key is you never know tell it happens and they learn that your going through this and taking the steps you need to take for your own health as you find your authentic self. Hugs
Mariah

very true, my siblings might understand, but i know my mom, who is most important, is going to completely  against  me being like this or anyway thats not normal

Hi arikelenigma, welcome to Susan's Place! I'm a Bostonian. Looking forward to seeing you around the site!

Hugs, Devlyn

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