Why do i feel a bit down? I dont know... I hope ill feel more happy soon.. Guess its paranoia

Still feel a bit weird today. I think it will be a long time before I try smoking pot again.

Quote from: Echo Alcestis on May 10, 2015, 08:14:05 AM
oh shush VM xD I am happy I do have a job. hell knows how much I suffered trying to find one lol

My comment was a general comment and not particularly directed towards you, your rude reply is not appreciated 

oh i:'m sry if I was rude [emoji20]

Actual thoughts occupying my mind have been the 70th anniversary of VE DAY, various reflections regarding Mother's Day and the future direction of the world in regards to a variety of issues

I met one of the most amazing human beings ever two nights ago.  I barely know her but I wish that I could know her.  She made me feel seen for the first time in a very long time.

Also, I need to go rescue my driver's license that a store kept on accident. Haha.

Ha, I was right. Mom just had to mention the TAILS when I told her about our rats. Can't understand what's so terrible about them anyway.

Jeez. Mood Swings are So ->-bleeped-<-ty..

I hope I don't screw up at that group job interview tomorrow.

Dragonbeer, good luck with the interview. Hugs
Mariah

Quote from: V M on May 10, 2015, 08:05:51 AM
I think people who have a job should be thankful

One never knows when the day will come when they will no longer be able work

Aye. One day in 2008 our boss walked in and said "Don't come to work tomorrow, the IRS will have the place padlocked." And that was the end of that.

I'm thinking of how low my self restrant is, no will power. I'm trying to stop any smoking for my surgery in 2 weeks & also on the Atkins diet. Today I went all day without a single cig, then just snapped, drove to the c store, bought the nasty things & now have smoked 2. Damn, they are gross, stain my teeth, taste nasty, so addicted to that drug I guess.

omg! texting while walking is as dangerous as texting while driving .-. almost got hit. need to stop doing that

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Why can't I get comfortable with my chosen name?  I like "Charlotte" but I loved "Caitlin."  And I can't use it.  So Charlotte feels like a compromise.  And I'm sick of compromising!  I want to be me!

I need to get a car .-. I hate waiting for this bus

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Quote from: marsh monster on May 10, 2015, 08:30:52 AM
Still feel a bit weird today. I think it will be a long time before I try smoking pot again.

I quit that stuff a few years back. I don't need or want that stuff anymore. I kind of miss alcohol. But, that's because I could actually control my drinking. Then, I went on medication for my panic attacks and I couldn't drink anymore. It kind of sucks.


I will never understand the appeal of those Lifetime movies where women are abused. Before my transition, they just made me roll my eyes and think to myself: "Wow..this is really stupid." But now, when I watch it, I think: "Jeez, this makes me so uncomfortable". It's kind of weird, though, because I could watch documentaries on serial killers all day and it doesn't phase me at all.

What I did for my mom seeing her and saying happy Mother's Day to her.Loved the card I gave her.Gave her the best gift too,my twin sister took a picture of us with me dressed as Tori.

I have a test tomorrow (like in 9 hours). Thinking in how I'm gonna pass the exam, I couldnt memorize everything D:

Quote from: Lady Smith on May 09, 2015, 12:52:53 PM
Being a social worker is a really tough job.  I worked for the adult mental health service for eight years and while I loved my job it ultimately broke my health and I had to take early retirement.  You're right we get to see too much and it wears us down.  I didn't have to deal with child abuse, but working in Triage like I did suicide was always a major stressor.
The advice we were given as mental health staff was that if we didn't look after ourselves we couldn't look after others, but more often than not the clinic staff I worked with looked as badly stressed out as the clients/patients we were trying to help.

Yeah...I get the same advice, to look after myself, but I fail at it pretty badly. =/ I just don't think I am meant for it, now I'm just trying to re-evaluate my direction.

Quote from: Adam (birkin) on May 10, 2015, 09:37:38 PM
Yeah...I get the same advice, to look after myself, but I fail at it pretty badly. =/ I just don't think I am meant for it, now I'm just trying to re-evaluate my direction.

What about going back to teaching? Doesnt have to be at the University, it could be somewhere else. You have a car now so that helps. I cant see you in retail. Forget factories, you wont be happy there. You're great with people. It's something I loved about you.  And do something about that Thesis! finish it or quit. There's no sense putting it off.