I appreciate all the replies, and I do understand that I need to be comfortable with myself. I feel that, when I can transition (I live with my family and have a lot of social issues I've talked about before, so I can't do anything right now) I will start feeling a lot better about these things. I'm honestly a little scared that I won't like how I look when I start transitioning. I've been looking at videos of peoples transitions to sort of get a slight idea of what to expect. It's made me feel a little better because I do end up feeling like I would be fine with how they look. I...I've just been obsessing over this a lot. This...desire to look like a girl means a lot to me...The longer I go looking like a male, the more hopeless I start to feel.

Quote from: Miharu Barbie on May 15, 2015, 12:47:10 PM
If there's anything is this building more glamorous than me, I want it captured and shot.   

Go on girl, be as playful and fun loving as you want to be.  You have my permission.   

Mirror... mirror on the wall, anyone?

Like you I don't like seeing myself in the mirror or pictures because my face and body just doesn't fit who I feel I should be.  When I look at myself in the mirror and think about what I might possibly look like as a woman I usually feel that it could never happen because I would be to hideous to ever really feel good about myself but then I think about how I don't really like how I look and feel now and if I didn't try it I would regret it for the rest of my life.   So I keep moving forward with getting my life in order so I can move forward with transition I really want to set myself up for success and become that woman I know I'm supposed to be and take everything that comes with it. 

Reading these boards I have found that transition is different for everyone.... Some will need very little to achieve an acceptable level of transition for them while others will need to do a whole lot more to even approach the level of transition they desire.  What you need to do for your transition will of course be up to you and may change as time passes but ultimately it's your transition and no one else's  so do what you want not what someone else says you can do.  This whole process will be scary and seem impossible at times but keep moving forward even when you feel you're getting nowhere and your beating your head against the wall and you will get there.

Quote from: JynxRosalie on May 15, 2015, 05:47:51 PM
I'm honestly a little scared that I won't like how I look when I start transitioning. I've been looking at videos of peoples transitions to sort of get a slight idea of what to expect. It's made me feel a little better because I do end up feeling like I would be fine with how they look. I...I've just been obsessing over this a lot. This...desire to look like a girl means a lot to me...The longer I go looking like a male, the more hopeless I start to feel.

Well, everyone has their look. I never knew what I'd look like either. I tried to mentally imagine my mom and dad combined. I was way off. I actually look a lot like my aunt, according to people I've asked (I showed them a picture with my aunt and my mom and asked them who I looked more like). So you can get an idea by looking at some of your female relatives. BUT don't think you'll look exactly like them. Everyone is unique.

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