Today marks the end of my 6th month on hormone therapy.
Just last year I gave my introductory post, telling my whole life story. A lot has happened since then. I sought therapy, told my wife, explained to my kids. Then 12/1/14 I started hormone therapy to be physically closer to who I am in spirit.
Physically I look vastly different, yet you can still see it's me. Part of this is due to weight loss but a lot of it has to do with the effects of estrogen and the lower testosterone. I am a few sizes smaller in all clothing as well and previously clothes that did not fit are good now.
Mentally and emotionally I am much clearer now and in a happier place being closer to my authentic self. I am kinder and gentler to almost everyone, and my kids see it in me that I am closer and more affectionate to them.
Socially I am out to so many people now. I also told my mom she can tell whoever she wants, I am not hiding anymore. She is going to meet her sister today.
Going out as a girl is also much more natural now, rather than being taboo. I am still not 100% full time but I would say about 90% there. Work is about all that is left.
My family for the most part has supported me except for my dad and my wife. Mom has been exceptional in this regard and said that if she knew earlier on (as a teenager) she would have absolutely helped me. Well, can't cry about that now. I am who I am. Onward and upward.
I am healthier with all of my health issues extremely well managed. This I give credit to my excellent medical team at Mount Sinai/Beth Israel. They are the best.
Would I do it again if faced with the decision? A resounding YES. This is who I am.
My mom did ask me a question.
She said, "do you feel fully female?"
I said, "yes and no."
Yes because female is my spirit and soul.
No because I am not physically where I want to be yet, and my body doesn't fully match. But I am getting there and much closer than I was.
