My mom bought me earrings for no reason at all
https://flic.kr/p/tZQLoX

After hard negotiation the government of Victoria in Australia is giving $6mill to the RCH gender unit to support kids with gender issues. The ABC 7.30 Report is using file footage of me to support that transgender people are normal and can be career successful. Haven't seen it as yet but hoping they don't butcher me.

After a chat with my line manager I'm going to go for a serious promotion to VP level in my US based company.
It won't be straight forward and is overly complex but that won't stop me.
Have done many impossible things while I have been there including recently launching a new product.
They always turn to me when things are hard. I get things done, do them brilliantly and survive.
I suppose that's what I am a survivor like the rest of us. GD makes us so determined.

Also more emails about PRIDE at my work place. This year I will be able to attend.

Yes we are normal and can be successful.
Butchers? Yes perhaps.

I got correctly gendered at dance last night.    A little explanation is probably in order.  As you might guess from the avatar I'm Celtic and happen to like Scottish country dance quite a bit.  All the groups I've danced with over the years have been lots of fun people and, hey, you can present male and wear a skirt---er, kilt---with fun swishy bits.  As with other country dances from the British Isles it's couples set dancing.  So there is a men's side and a ladies side.  Like most dance groups we have quite a few more presenting female than presenting male, meaning if you present male (yo) you're pretty well always stuck on what we've taken to calling the kilt side and never get to dance petticoat side.  There are good reasons for this.  If you change sides you have to mirror the dance mentally to do it properly, which gets confusing.  It also can confuse other people as your changing position moves their mental landmarks.  As a result, there's a bunch of presenting female androgyny going on since often people pick either kilt or petticoat side and stick to it for simplicity.  I love the swapping of gender conventions even if I'm left out.

Without thinking about it last night one of the cis women who usually dances kilt side asked me to be her petticoat.  The couple older gals in the group who frown on this sort of thing were in another set.  So, for once, I didn't get kicked out of the petticoat side and sent back over to be a kilt.  It was only one dance out of the evening but yay!

Quote from: Cindy on June 02, 2015, 03:37:33 AM
After hard negotiation the government of Victoria in Australia is giving $6mill to the RCH gender unit to support kids with gender issues.

Sweet!  Hope the newscast was nice to you.

I was at a training class for work today. Apparently everyone there saw me as the real me. I male failed first thing this morning unexpectedly and was gendered female for the rest of the day.

I have two more days of this, may as well just give up pretending to be him.

I came out to my sister and in return she came out to me that she is gay

My therapist focused well on my self-consciousness issues and agreed that we will work on it. He followed up by saying that my participation in the forums here is very good thing for me. Thank you my sisters and brothers here. You and my therapist made me happy today.

I got the OK from my mother to go to a gender therapist once we get our own home! (shes got the drivers licenses because I'm blocked from getting one due to my migraines.) And She even asked a few non judgmental questions about what a transition entails. Small miracles, that's all I wanted, and that's what I got. Also

Quote from: Hailey zy on June 02, 2015, 10:39:04 PM
I came out to my sister and in return she came out to me that she is gay

Congratulations, Wish i had it that easy with my brother, I positively fear coming out to him.

I just arrived home after doing the week's grocery shopping before the heavy dark sky let loose a heavy shower of rain.  I don't drive a car so I was riding my grown up girl's tricycle and I would have got myself soaked to the skin like a drowned rat if I'd arrived home five minutes later.

I regularly shop at an Asian supermarket run by a Pakistani family and this afternoon the store owner asked me if I would keep an eye on the store for him while he said his prayers out in the back room.  He knows I'm Catholic, so I was quite touched to be asked to keep an eye on things for a few minutes while he was at prayer.  When I was a social worker I worked with a couple of Muslim refugee families for a while and I learned a lot about simple faith in God from them.

Quote from: Marly on June 02, 2015, 10:44:07 PM
My therapist focused well on my self-consciousness issues and agreed that we will work on it. He followed up by saying that my participation in the forums here is very good thing for me. Thank you my sisters and brothers here. You and my therapist made me happy today.

You my not know it but in Australia it is recommended by the psychiatrists that you join Susan's for support!!!!

Backstory; So this morning (well yesterday), well afternoon, my mom woke me up for work, because I did not wake up from my alarm. Anyways, she mentions "Bruce Jenner story" is all over the news. So as I grab a cup of coffee I gauge some reactions out of her off asking what she thinks about it, and also correcting her on proper pronouns. After a quick five minute cup of coffee with her, and small talk. I toddle off to work.
After I get off of work, well close to the end of my shift, I decide to talk to a co worker, who is such an awesome ftm non op. Brought up that I haven't come out to my family, and such, and brief of my life story. I was recommended to try out throwing a hypothetical question.

Story; So after I get home from work, wash up, saddle on my girly pants (which by the way are so much more comfy than anything I have worn thus far in my life) I go sit and watch my mom's shows with her, and then since she brought Caitlyn Jenner into the picture this morning, I decided to start there, then throw out a, not so hypothetical, hypothetical question. Huge success, had to just about hide my smile from being too big, to not give it away that it was not really hypothetical. But with the results, since tomorrow is mine and my mom's day off of work, I will be officially coming out to her.
Next step past that would to talk to my father and brother, possibly this weekend, probably not a good idea Saturday since that's my half sisters 5th birthday, but maybe Sunday. Plans plans... going in motion, like the coals burning in the furnace of a locomotive to keep it moving on the path to happiness.

I was running behind this morning so I didn't pack a lunch, that meant I had to go get one from a convenience store. The male clerk looked me up and down and then only charged me for my chips and drink, I got the sandwich for free. Getting the "cute female" discount befuddled me enough that I couldn't ask him to charge me. I just gave him the money he asked for and skedaddled. He was staring me in the eye so I had to say "thank you". I laughed the whole way back to work. I hated getting the "atractive male" discount but this...I don't know what to do with this!

I got my work ID updated to reflect my new name and gender.  (I love my new picture, so professional looking.)  I was then able to use my work ID to update my Credit Union records so new checks, ATM/Debit and credit cards have been ordered.  Next week is DMV and a new drivers license    Getting my doctors letter so that I can get an updated passport.  Everything is moving along great!

Today, I had a second request to post full body pictures. I feel honored that some people feel inspired by my not giving an expletive what anyone else thinks and wearing what I want. I have plans to make a gallery here to showcase my outfits. This won't be an immediate thing but it's in the planning stages. If I'm going to do something, I'm going to do it right.

  I was at a thrift store today and found nice-looking, comfortable summer shoes that actually fit, and it wasn't even why I was there to shop!

I shaved my legs and chest for the first time ever. I love the feeling and to my surprise my dysphoria has lessened 

Quote from: Sabrina on June 03, 2015, 08:03:54 PM
Today, I had a second request to post full body pictures. I feel honored that some people feel inspired by my not giving an expletive what anyone else thinks and wearing what I want. I have plans to make a gallery here to showcase my outfits. This won't be an immediate thing but it's in the planning stages. If I'm going to do something, I'm going to do it right.

Wish lived close to you Sabrina. I'm a photographer

I made my first appointment for laser on my beard today! I'm so tremendously excited as my beard shadow is definitely the biggest source of whatever dysphoria I have.

Started shaving arms, legs and chest it feels amazing now! Also found a really cute pair of flat Mary Janes that fit! Also got my first dress in the mail today. Was worried that it wasn't going to fit since it was only size but it does! It felt so amazing to try it on. Now I'm worried that my size 16 cocktail dress is going to be way to big. I'm just happy it fits and that I was able to size myself right.

Quote from: iKate on June 02, 2015, 09:00:39 PM
I was at a training class for work today. Apparently everyone there saw me as the real me. I male failed first thing this morning unexpectedly and was gendered female for the rest of the day.

I have two more days of this, may as well just give up pretending to be him.

So the past few days as I mentioned I went to a training class. Two of my colleagues also attended but it had around 10-12 students.

I'm a few weeks from truly being full time at work and my therapist basically said "don't hide."

So I've been literally letting my hair down. 

Anyway I step into the place where we get the training, and I'm read as female. Until I show my ID to the doorman, that is... ugh. "Ok buddy, is this your ID? It don't look like you" Then I said yes. He let me sign in anyway.

i was wearing a polo shirt but really I didn't care to bind or anything so my chest was showing and these days I male fail sometimes.

Up the elevator, people hold doors for me... hmm.

Walk into the class, the instructor greets me with his sexy Australian accent, "can I help you, miss?"  Whooaa.. Okay. Didn't expect that. I tried to raise my voice to get it passable, but I could only speak softly. Then my colleague motioned me to the back of the class. Good God, I hope I didn't blow it!

Then all day long I notice nobody genders me male at all. So anyway time for a break. I go to the men's room out of habit. I figure, hey I am technically at work. A guy coming out looked at me and said, "ma'am, this is the MEN'S room"  and then pointed to the ladies down the hall. Okay! So I go to the ladies then.

The next day I decide you know what, enough of this crap. I wear more feminine/androgynous clothing. You could obviously see boobs and a feminine waistline, and I think my bra straps were printing too. Not a word from anyone. No stares, nothing. No problems using the women's restroom either.

And today I just let it all down. There was no mistaking who I was. Again, everyone acted normal. No restroom issues at all.

THANK GOD. I hate using the men's. You have no idea how distressing it is for me. Well, actually you probably do.

So, either I passed for those three days, or people were just really really nice to me. Yes?