for me its something I look forward too, the build up to who I'm going to be, I'm still presenting as a male role at the moment, but quietly I'm growing my hair out, my natural nails and coating them with clear strengthening polish, have my ears pierced, occasionally paint my toenails and just wear socks around people I dont feel comfortable showing at this time. I'm in contact with a gender therapist but it will be a good 7 months before I go on HRT but I still wont be presenting as a woman. I need more time, more time to accept my height and frame and foot size, before I jump into being a woman full-time. HRT will reduce muscle mass keep that in mind, it can shape your body although its different for everyone I have seen some fantastic results. I take it baby steps and plan it out, its kind of a thrill like a work in progress too. Dont set expectations of how you will look.. I've only started learning to tell myself that ''I'm a big girl so I should have a big voice, feet, hands etc.'' I rather accept these things about my body then fight a war that CANNOT be won. in your case you can lose muscle and you can get rid of body hair. Passing is not always just about appearances also, its about how you hold yourself, the energy you throw out to the world, if that day you are feeling like being feminine and you throw out that energy people will pick up on that and vice versa.
