I been coming here years. I fell three stories back in march and am now not sure if I can ever work again. Im broke up and have nurve damages. I live in Oahu hawaii. I perform my own band myself  and was rebuilding boats for work. I fear I will live homeless in a wheelchair after I am released from the nursing home. my family has chosen to not help me and the rest of humanity would be pointless to ask.  I lost my kids to a stageshow put on by my ex 4 years ago and do not feel lucky to be alive. I told them not to give me a blood transfusion but they did. I was thinking of sueing the hospital for going against my wishes and saving me to only suffer much pain and isolation.  Is there a point to living if I cannot take care of myself?  My body is in much pain, it is a lonely feeling knowing Ill have to take care of myself as a homeless cripple. I just hope i can sue for the blood transfusion. they only saved me to suffer.

Hey Anela

Welcome to Susan's    Great to have you here - looking forward to seeing you around the forum.

I'm so sorry to hear that you are suffering. Are there any local charities you can maybe contact that may be able to help you? I know it must be so difficult through the physical and emotional pain but see if there are NGOs that might offer support before you are released. All the best.

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Hi Anela,

I'm sorry to hear of your troubles. You should qualify for benefits to help with a place to live and such. disability benefits at the very least.

I know it all seems like there is no reason to go on at the moment, but there is a future for you. You may have to struggle to find it but it is there. Please try to talk to someone, a therapist perhaps. There is help  out there for you and likely someone who needs your help, even if you don't see that right now.

Your kids still will see how you live your life and that will affect them. Hurting them is not likely on the top of your to do list.

You can get schooling paid for to train in another type of work, I know that that benefit is out there from using it myself.

You are not as alone as you feel. I don't know how to convey that to you but it is true. Please call United way and they can help guide you to other resources that are more local to you.

Hi Anela

Welcome to Susan's

Lots of hugs to you, I am lost for words in what has happened to you... I pray for you to find some happier times soon.

Please take care and find some professional help with resolving some of the issues that have befallen you.

hugs and kisses

L Katy 

Hugs Honey,

You're not alone anymore, you are with friends here who do care.

Hi Anela 

Welcome to Susan's    Glad to have you here, join on in the fun

Hugs

V M

Hi Anela, Welcome to Susan's. So sorry to hear your suffering. No one should have to suffer like that. Is here any assistance you can get from charities and the government. I would hope they would be trying to do everything they can to make you feel comfortable. Your among friends who care now though. I look forward to seeing your around the forums. Good luck and big Hugs
Mariah

Quote from: Anela on June 06, 2015, 02:47:47 AM
I been coming here years. I fell three stories back in march and am now not sure if I can ever work again. Im broke up and have nurve damages. I live in Oahu hawaii. I perform my own band myself  and was rebuilding boats for work. I fear I will live homeless in a wheelchair after I am released from the nursing home. my family has chosen to not help me and the rest of humanity would be pointless to ask.  I lost my kids to a stageshow put on by my ex 4 years ago and do not feel lucky to be alive. I told them not to give me a blood transfusion but they did. I was thinking of sueing the hospital for going against my wishes and saving me to only suffer much pain and isolation.  Is there a point to living if I cannot take care of myself?  My body is in much pain, it is a lonely feeling knowing Ill have to take care of myself as a homeless cripple. I just hope i can sue for the blood transfusion. they only saved me to suffer.

My first idea: Could you apply for Social Security and have someone (a social worker perhaps) help you get government subsidized housing?

My second idea: Go into a nursing home as a last resort.

You have my sympathies that this has happened and I hope you are able to find something to do about it.

  Thank you all for the kind words and support. to answer some questions,
I am in a nursing home and have a social worker. I was informed I cannot apply for public housing without an income showing now and I cannot get state financial help as long as living here and cannot apply for SSI until I am released as well. Frustraighting this system is that I have to  be either taken care of by someone or homeless to appy for help but if this comes I will do what i have to do. At least living homeless in Waikiki is not too bad and it will not be more than six months.
  As far as charities go, I will look into this to see if I can get help. currently I am doing an art canvas that is amazing. I did sacred geometry accuratly and am painting the entire canvas with a single cat whisker.. This is to be the seventh canvas in the world completely painted with a single whisker. the biggest help would be sharing my accomplishment when done and i am working tirelessly trying to complete this thing with my time.  I even have a high end seller waiting for it in Waikiki. I will bring a pick of it and myself here as soon as possable.
  But any charity help you know of would help. I can go back to the house I was staying at but not without some kind of income. they have been watching my dog and my things this whole time and i feel blessed for that.

  As far as my Alone topic. I came here to not feel it and though you would come around and your comments are helping.

  Legally I have an issue that my insurance company changed my sex to male and I am now legal female, my social workers calls but after thirty minutes of getting run around we only make it to a voice message and no return call. the issue is they are refusing my hormone therapy and have illegally changed my sex to a sex government does not recognise me as... in case you are confused, I am Post op M to F Legal femal on my drivers lic. Ins must go by my legal sex even though i have not changed my legal name.  I have not found a lawyer to take this as a driscrimination case. I cannot get a hold of the ins and they do not call back and are refusing my hormones.. i feel they are breaking laws doing this to me. ant advise of what I can do about this would help but i bet most have no idea. the office is on another island so I cannot even walk into the office..

  In all, I am an Angel of love and love you all. I do not feel lucky to be alive but cannot take my life as I owe living to my children and humanity in general. I love me too and believe in myself to pull through but am in a very hard place to stay happy and really need some supportive words.. much love, Anela

Angela
I am very sorry for all of your problems. Keep painting!! Art will take your mind off of things and may give you more clarity. And it sounds like it will give you some income.

I would love to see the canvas when it is finished.

Hugs
Melanie


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I been painting hours and hours daily.... Im worried i will be out of the nursing home with no way to work or place to live so this painting is my only hope!!! Much love my Sisters and brothers

Hi Anela,

I am so sorry to hear of your situation. doesn't Hawaii treat it's people as ohana? Know that we care about you here and would like to feel welcome as part of our ohana. My thoughts and prayer are with you.

Me Ke Aloha

Traci