Hello, my name is Ash and the reason I made this account is so I could perhaps get a few answers from people perhaps more educated than I in identity and orientation because you see, I am quite confused on where I trully stand.
I never focused much on gender as it held little importance to me when it came to defining who I am, though truth be told I've always felt quite male. That being said, I'm paranoid about whether my past experiences as a child is causing a dissociation or if I truly feel male because I am.
When I was an adolescent (age 13-14, grades 7-8), I was assaulted multiple times by a group of girls, and I found that if I wore loose clothing that hid my body and thus my gender, they came after me less then when I wore tighter clothing that showed off what I had. Am I dissociating due to this? I still feel male, I look at myself and know that this isn't how I want to look, but I don't want to through with anything until I'm sure. I don't have many people to talk about this besides by therapist, who said it might be a good idea to as the advice of those in my own situation.
As for sexuality, I never had time to explore it, nor have I had any interest. I find both genders attractive, though I will say I do like the male form a tad more. That being said, I have no interest in sex. I see no point of it nor do I, myself, want to partake in it.
I'm relatively new at all of this, as you can see, and would love a civil conversation with anyone who can help me.
Thank you.
