Just wanted to intro myself. 
Hi I am Breanna
I have gone back into cross dressing, more lately than I'v ever done all my life.
Cant seem to stop & loving it, more than ever.
I actual started dressing up at age 9, (yes I was in year 4) didn't know why, but simply as was the only form on turn on that I could think of & choose.  Have mostly gone on /off (more off) over the years with gaps spanning months or years.
Its helped also with my decision to go on living but not sure how far I want to take it as Breanna. As i'm not a very outgoing person.  Have never gone out yet but the thought of it, passing (or not), thrills me to the core 

Anyhow, cheers to all.   

Hi Breanna,

I just wanted to say hello back! I'm new here as well, and I'm just at the start of all this (no idea what's going on in my head as of now) so I think it's awesome that you do seemingly know what you want, at least temporarily and for now! It's great that crossdressing gives you a thrill, and I hope you'll be very happy with it whether or not you'll pass :-)

Anyway, welcome! Here's to hoping we'll figure things out!

Roscar

Breanna93

Welcome to the site. I imagine one of the moderators will welcome you and post some links that are helpful soon.

I am middle aged. I started dressing when I was about 8 or 9 as well. I have been married for going on 25 years this Sept with three teenage daughters.

I thought I was struggling with cross dressing for years and had a lot of purges of clothing. I have not gone out in public either. Just started therapy last January and in Feb or March came to the conclusion I am MTF transsexual. I have come out to my wife and 3 other people. All have been supportive.  My wife is  a little nervous not knowing what the future will bring.  I am just starting my first steps. Don't really know how far I will go yet.

Mostly I wanted to say that you are not alone. There are many here who care and will help if they can. At the same time, if you are not seeing a therapist, I would highly suggest going to one. It is good to talk to someone who has not preconceived notion of you and no judgement. Helps to sort through and find which thoughts vs feelings are real and how to proceed.

I hope you have a smooth journey.

With warm thoughts,

Joanna

Awwwe thanks Threading and Joanna50 for the lovely welcome.
Ya know I just realized this is the 1st time I've even told ANYONE on any site, way, shape or form about my shenanigans from child to now, not even my wife knows.
Yes I want to see a phyc but just worried. Would be good to know who I really am or should be though.

And Joanna50, me same, mid aged married 25 yrs.
All my life I've dreamed of being a woman would gladly take a magic pill if one existed.

Yes who know where the journey will end??
As it has been said
"Its not the destination that counts, its the journey along the way the matters".

Welcome to Susan't place. I was kind of a later bloomer not figuring it out till age 13 but it's possible my hormones were a little slow in driving me crazy. Once I started, I made up for lost time. As for the journey, we have somewhat of an idea where yours will go because the little bit of story you told us rings true in us as well. What every you do, don't stop looking until you are sure you have an answer to your questions. If I can be of any help, let me know.

Welcome to Susan's Place.

Hi Breanna 

Welcome to Susan's    Glad to have you here, join on in the fun

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Hi there Breanna

Lovely to have you join us here at Susan's 

Its great that you are finding yourself

Good luck and look forward to seeing you about

L Katy 

Hi Breanna, welcome to Susan's. I look forward to seeing you around the forms. Good luck and Hugs
Mariah

Thanks you are all so wonderful 
Since finding this site I feel like a kid in a mega candy store factory.

I want to tell you this..
The other night I put on a documentary film.
I was sitting there lip synching virtualy every word as it was spoken yet I had never seen this film before.

Why, because this was MY story.
The film:  It was a the Bruce Jenner Interview.
I sat there shocked but excited realizing this was a carbon copy of my life, well the transgender side at least.

Thanks again.
Oops forgot to mention, you all look so beautiful btw. 

Breanna,

I was terrified to go to a psychologist last January. Now, I am a huge evangelist for therapy. I had never been and had always believed that one could just muddle by with the right attitude and people around you. Problem was that I had a secret I felt no one could know and felt shame. I felt I would be judged, even by an objective therapist. I went and pretty much said, "I have problems with cross dressing and have  for a long time. What can I do to get rid of this and not tell anyone else."

As you can see, I did a lot of research, trying to capture memories(I can't remember much before 7th grade- and it's like someone else's stories remembered by odd snapshots) and massive internal soul searching. I have come a long way in 6 months.

I don't tell you this to brag or feel the need to tell you everything about myself. I just wanted to share that I was afraid to see a psychologist as well.  Almost to the point of being paralyzed. I think it is worth it. A good therapist does not seem to give you all the answers but help guide you on a path of self discovery. They help you to avoid rabbit holes that lead no where(although sometimes it might be valuable to go down one) and avoid self destructive paths.

I hope you find the clarity you are looking for. Please feel free to post questions. There are many here with many experiences.

With warmth,

Joanna

Hi Breanna and welcome to Susan's. I started cross dressing ten years ago in my mid fifties. Never cross dressed as a child nor did I have the desire. Guess it was in me all along. I loved the feeling of satin and silk against my skin. Thought it was just a phase but was I wrong. Today I am a happy and content transgender woman. Been married for 35 years and my wife is accepting. I've never been happier.