One thing I'm skeptical about with those before and after shots, not only for the reasons mentioned above, but also because every single one of the before's head is tilted back, while all the after's are tilted forward.
Yes, you do look like a gorgeous creature!
But I also understand the desire to change something that others may hastily dismiss you as being too self-deprecating.
I'm sorry this has bothered you so much... and hopefully you get what you need, and have it done well...
I don't say this in any paternalistic sense, but I think it may be good to find a therapist to just talk to about how you feel. To reflect on my own case: there's all these annoying hoops I had to jump through in order to start hormones, but in retrospect, I see that I made some fantastic bonds and helped myself in ways I wouldn't have otherwise sought... (however, I find that I don't fit well with 19 out of 20 therapists I try out, so it takes some shopping sometimes, or sometimes you get lucky on the first try)
In any case, it hasn't changed the fact that I'm going to get FFS in August, but it has helped me to talk about it, and has inclusively helped me with making the decision of surgeon.