My therapist has to make sure that transgender is not a phase I'm going through because I have border line personality disorder and was an abused child. The worst part is I'm thinking now that I'm possibly androgynous female and gender fluid. For a few years I was sure I was a FTM transgender. Does anyone else on here have border line personality disorder?

As much as we would love to help you with that and say you are or you are not something we can't. I highly recommend your discussing this with your therapist and doctor. As you travel down your and and learn more about yourself you will gain the answers you seek. Good luck and I hope your able to get that sorted out. You could always get a second opinion unless your somewhere where that is impossible. Hugs
Mariah

Hi Jake,

I was diagnosed with BPD in my late teens. It's very much separate from my gender dysphoria, though there are some areas that overlap (my self esteem and body image mostly). None of the professionals that I've worked with have had any issue working with me, getting me on hormones, and helping me get surgery. Just be as honest and frank with them as you can, and be willing to work towards whatever your goals are.

If you haven't looked into Dialectical Behavior Therapy, I'd strongly suggest it. I found it to be very helpful. I don't know that I would say I'm completely recovered, but I feel a lot better than I did back then and I have a lot more skills to deal with my issues when they arise.

I do second Mariah's advice. Everyone's story is unique, though common narratives do arise. Spend some time talking through things with your therapist. Talk to other professionals and see what they think.

I was diagnosed with BPD after I had begun HRT, I've been receiving treatment for both seperately. I was also later told that I was Bipolar. I still continue to see the appropriate proffesonals for each and keep everyone informed. I made sure that my therapist specialized in both personality disorders and transgender issues as well.

Hi Jake,

I was officially diagnosed with BPD 5 years ago and i really feel you on all the uncertainty and second guessing. I know some of my family members like to pull the "How do you know this whole 'trans thing' isn't just part of your mental disorder " card all the time. Lately I've come to think that when it comes down to it we really can't know that it's not, but i mean my mental disorder is just the way I'm wired, and being trans is the way I'm wired, and if they overlap? Such is life.
Don't think of genderfluidity as a cop-out, cause you're really not giving up on anything, you're just choosing a path that branches from where you thought you were going. There is nothing "more" or "less" between being ftm or being genderfluid. Feel free to explore being genderfluid if that's what feels right in this moment!
I know for me at least when i consider my disorder and my gender i wonder "Am I just making this all up? Am i just crazy?" but you really just need to trust yourself. there is a feeling of /rightness/ that you just can't make up, a feeling of gender euphoria rather than dysphoria (cause let's be real, existence on its own feels pretty dysphoric when you have BPD). Listen to that feeling of rightness. and if you feel it by expressing yourself as a female identified genderfluid person, then that's just as great as if you'd felt it while expressing yourself as a straight up trans man.
The people who replied before are right; this is a personal journey. Everyone's experiences are going to be completely different. But the best part about that is that there is no right or wrong, everything just Is. Take your time, go at a pace you feel comfortable with, and explore your gender identity and presentation as much as you like, until you feel like you fonally know what you're actually comfortable with. Your gender is the one thing that is seriously all about you: Go with what you like and what feels right.

Sorry, i realize this is an old question, but im new to the forum and just identified with it so much when i saw it, i felt the intense need to answer ha
Have a nice day, hope everything works out for you!

Hi, Shyguy and welcome to Susan's.

This isn't that old and your post is informative. I learned a lot from posts of another member who has the same BPD. It is always good to share and learn.

Feel free to keep posting and reading.

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