Quote from: Leki on June 24, 2015, 07:21:36 AM
Hey Sarah, was it tough putting off HRT? Is your partner cis or trans?
What did you study?
Do you present socially as a female?
I would love to hear more about your experiences. Feel free to message me also xoxox
I have no partner sadly meaning it is just my 7 year old daughter, 10 year old son and I. So being a fulltime single parent with no family or friends for support has made it hard as well as raising them since my daughter was a few weeks old and my son 17months old. It has been worth it even if for the first 5-6 years I was forced to rebury it in the dark recess of my mind and focus on completing the first goal of getting a University degree. The two years since have been slow, with learning to just accept and explorer what I feel inside. I accept who I really am now, but I have not spoken to others publicly yet. During this two year period I spend 14 months searching for work and researching options. I was lucky to see a nice person called Dr Lyons (psychiatrist) in Adelaide, South Australia who gave the go ahead to see an endocrinologist.
However I got a job a few days before he offered and felt I was not physically ready as I was 120kgs at that point so I stated, "I will see you in 12 months good man."
Since then I have got down to 87kg, grow my hair over the last four months to the point it has gone from a number four buzz cut all over to just below my nose and touching my upper lip when damp. I removed all hair on my throat/neck with laser and will start on the rest in a few months as I continue to drop my weight to 75kgs.
In terms of putting it off the impact has been extremely upsetting. Realistically I do not know how I have done it thus far. I have hit my mid-thirties now (I am old) and it has been extremely hard on my health causing me immense pain internally. I often cry in my room when the kids are not about and I have an immense hatred of what I look like. I cannot form a partnership with another person with all that is going on as I do not want to cause them pain when that first pill passes my lips.
What did I study?
I studied a full 4 year Bachelors' degree in Social work gaining honours 1st class, as well as Juvenile justice for 1 year and 2 years as a mental health Social worker aiding youth 6-24 years of age with schizoid affective disorders, depression, anxiety, PTSD and other such things. All up I did seven years of study in 5 years "fulltime." (IE no sleep or social life from 27-32 years old.)
Do you present socially as a female?
No I wish I could yet I would never pass at this point.
