(this is kinda a rant post so I'm going all over the place, sorry about that)

I won't be able to start hrt until I'm 18, and that sucks. Even if I do start hrt when I'm 18, testosterone still would have effected my body for 5 years, maybe a little longer. Depending on the person, you might develop so fast you might as well be in your 30's, and that REALLY scares me. Like what if I'm one of those people?! What would I do?! Should I even try to transition if that's the case? I might be able to get on anti-testosterone when I'm 17 if I'm lucky enough to find people that are willing to work with minors. But I'm kinda having mixed feelings about the situation, a part of me says i'm going to completely masculinized and it will be too late, the other says nah that won't happen you'll be okay. Keep in mind, I'm almost 16, so that's 3 years into puberty for me. and... surprisingly my body hasn't changed that much. I mean yes my voice is deeper, i'm hairer, and i'm aroused... all the time. But believe it or not, my skeleton structure is still extremely androgenous. So I don't know if I'm like really lucky or life is playing a big trick on me and in the next 2 years my body will change completely. But I'm still really worried. I know none of you can really give me a definite answer. But please opinions make me feel much MUCH better than not knowing ANYTHING.

The main question is why you can't get treatment. if you haven't told your parents, there isn't much we can do. If your parents are resisting you, there are arguments we can offer you. Take a close look at your relatives body type and you might see the worst or the best nature will offer you. In my case, I kept adding hight into college toping out at 6'2" with little body hair and a very deep voice. It has made life a bit more difficult but I am comfortable in public and never see stares even when dressed down.

If you still need to tell your parents, we can prepare you so you are better able to face your parents. Post your answer on this thread and I will read it when I am on the board.

The best thing to do is prepare for the worst so expect yourself to be a tall, built muscular person with a deep voice and hair all over. I dont know which country you reside in, but in Britain you could talk to your GP and they would refer you to CAMHS (childrens mental health team) who would explain to your parents etc. and hopefully make it a lot easier.

If you dont talk to your parents, I know its daunting but you wont be able to do anything until your 18 anyway because you need parental consent.

On the other hand, your can naturally slow down the process by upping your estrogen levels but not too much because if you have too much estrogen majority will turn into testosterone and that will give you the opposite effect.
By naturally transitioning, I am refering to changing your diet. Im FTM so to increase testosterone levels I upped my protein levels and ate certain fruits and increased my zinc intake. Dont meddle with steroids and pills though youd be hard pressed to find someone who will sell them to you (age) and you cant tell whats in them etc.


Good Luck
Gentle

What about if you go to the doctor on your own and pay the prescription out of pocket?

Just a note: Estrogen does NOT turn into Testosterone.