Well, this is fun, finally remembered my password(and figure out how to use tapatalk).
Anyways, one of my favorite youtubers recently came out as gay, so that caused me to think more about coming out as transsexual to my parents, especially since I found out that they are now mostly okay with the LGBT community(as long as it doesn't hurt their religion). Which lead to me searching through my Facebook, which ended with me just spending the last few nights remembering.
So, I started questioning my gender seriously back in 2013(think I registered here around that time), but realized recently it actually started before then, 2013 was just the first time I really became interested in it.
Going back further, I remember when I was probably 9 or younger, I would stuff my shirt with clothes/pillows and pretend I was pregnant(find it weird that I knew where babies came from at that age, but still had no idea that the sexes had different genitals at that point). I also remember whenever me and my friends would play make believe, I would want to be in the role of a woman, which probably lead to some strange questions from my friends...
Probably around age 10, I remember me and my brother made up a game, where the bad guy would always try turning all of the boys into girls... Yeah... That game was probably very weird for my brother(and probably explains why he is now homophobic). Anyways, I remember always enjoying it, until my brother moved on to more masculine games, and I pretty much shut the world out around age 11.
Probably around age 12, I remember joining the Boy Scouts, but always being more interested in the Girl Scouts, and spent more time around my female friends.. When I could without being made fun of.
I think closer to age 13, my mom caught me with tampons and pads in my room, and questioned me in front of my brothers, who were giving me weird looks. I honestly remember getting into them out of curiousity rather than anything sexually. I think around that time was also when I started cross dressing late at night. Also recall finding one of my mom's skirts appearing in my closet one day, near the laundry, and I watched it for a few weeks before trying it on.... Still semi convinced my mom put it there on purpose for me... Probably not true, but I like to imagine it was true.
I also remember around age 14, my mom starting like pointing at girls in public and in some way, asking if I wanted to be like them, of course at that time I started trying to block out those feelings, so I would quickly say no and change the subject.
Nothing much came around until 2013, when I decided that I had to be gay or bisexual, so i spent weeks researching the idea, until one night I decided to type something like "guy feels like girl" into google, and ended up finding the word "transgender" and a link to this forum. Everything made sense to me at that point, and I decided I would grow out my hair and go from there.
This year my parents made me cut my hair since they thought it made me look too young and that I would be picked on in college. I now regret it completely. Though thankfully for future use, found out my college has unisex bathrooms.
Pretty much at the point I am now, I am 100% sure I am transsexual, and am hoping to come out to my parents this year. and then pursue gender therapy(have to go through my parents, I don't drive yet). The main issue I am having is starting the conversation. Did decide I would prefer to come out without my brothers around, and face to face, since they would take me more seriously through a face to face conversation.
Hmm... Maybe I should stop writing books in forums
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