First i lose my boyfriend after coming out. Unexpected but fine. Then i lose him as a friend. Well business as usual. AC starting to break down in 100 degree weather. Ok it's getting a bit ridiculous. My friend had quit her job and now just works at a lesser paying one and wants me to move in so she can stay afloat. Stress levels are high now but I can manage. Yesterday i find out another friend was kicked out by his brother and has nowhere to live. I want to help him so bad but I have literally no knowledge of resources. So then i go home and want to relax with my roomie and watch Kill la Kill. My old fluff ball cat waddles in as usual and flops over. Terrified i take her to the vet and I had to put her down. She was suffering from anemia and kidney failure. Because she was like 16 i couldn't throw $1k and expect her to live long.

I feel like I'm coming apart at the seams. I don't think i can handle any more of this

Hugs I hope the next 5 months are better for you and sorry about the cat

Definitely a stressful time for you. It sounds like you need a vacation. Even if it is just a long walk. As to the AC breakdown, there are things you can do to cool your place. Run fans at night with an open window then close and cover all your windows with quilted curtains during the day.


My sister once had a message on her phone. It said, "Leave a message, I'm at the store in the freezer section. I will get back to you soon as the temp goes down."

Hugs, Ben.

There are days I need to enjoy being me, because nothing else is going right. Sounds like you're in an extended stretch. I am so sorry about your cat. The AC is miserable but hopefully temporary. And as for your friend, well we talked about that in another thread. When my friends can't seem to keep their drama away from me when I'm least able to deal with it, time for a bit of distance.

Hang in there. You're tough enough to make it through. I promise.

To be honest i can't care any less about my transition. The catalyst for it were two things; money and support. When my roommate had his job i could use my extra funds for haircut, new wardrobe, more masculine glasses etc.

Now i absolutely hate myself because had i not gone ahead i might have saved up enough to pay for my cat's emergency bill. Now i feel like i lost another thing because of it.

Hi Ben. Sorry to hear you're going through a rough time. Don't beat yourself up over not being able to pay the vet. For a 16yr old cat with kidney failure, euthanasia was probably the kindest option anyway. Hope you feel better soon!