Not menstruating or being able to bear children is just one of those sadnesses that I accepted a long time ago. I calmed myself as a teen by imagining coming across a child who had been thrown away and raising them as my own. I decided that if I was ever financially stable enough I would adopt. Then, a couple months ago, someone here mentioned the idea of adopting a trans kid, saving them from the foster home system. That is now my goal. Not every human can be a direct genetic link, but we are all part of the human story. I just hope that I can become enough a solid citizen to have a home that I can open to a young life. I can't think of anything better than giving a kid a chance they never had, and the chances that I never had. Those kids are out there right now. Many of them are just starting the wrong puberty. Lost, scared, afraid and alone. Who better to help them to adulthood?

I guess I will see what the future holds. First things first, I need to finish rebuilding my life from scratch! Motherhood will come just when I need it to be part of my life. I trust that and so I will listen and wait for my chance. I just hope I take it when it comes...