I'm seeing my counselor today and plan to open up again, come what may. I'm happy to be stripping away the self-denial and self-deception.

Quote from: Christine Eryn on July 20, 2015, 07:13:57 PM
Got my FFS bandage off my head to see what my upper face looks like with a smaller nose and flat forehead! My black eyes and bruises are almost completely gone after only 5 days. Face is still swollen, forehead still hurts like hell, but this is truly the first day of the rest of my life.

Good luck healing up. I had a full face lift & upper eye lid surgery last summer. I look nice now but oh me, 2 months of wearing a facial support mask 24/7 was not fun but it worked. OH yea I had such black & blue eyes. I feel your pain. TC & good for you.

Had an endo appointment yesterday, and finally bumped up from my low starting dose. Wheee!

There were a couple hours of preparing for things to get ugly with my insurance company because the pharmacy sent an email update that they were unable to fill that prescription, so for some reason filled an old one instead. Eventually went in and sat around the pharmacy and they found it was apparently some problem with how they'd submitted it, so it worked out. I think it had to do with the 4 different permutations of dose and quantity estradiol prescriptions they had on my account. (I had them delete all but the most recent one, so hopefully this doesn't happen again...)

Just relieved that insurance didn't decide they don't cover this, or that I can only have that original tiny dose...

cuddly pets

Congrats girl!!

Quote from: jeni on July 22, 2015, 07:13:57 AM
Had an endo appointment yesterday, and finally bumped up from my low starting dose. Wheee!

I got a kitty 

Today I came out to all my new coworkers. We spent the morning in an impromptu seminar on what it means to be transgender as we packed boxes. It was a lot of fun. One coworker told me his friend is a transman and talking to me helped him understand him better. He also asked me how you know. I told him, "the doctor says to you that he needs to cut off your testicles. How do you react?" He responded, "no way in h&!!" I said, "you're not transgender".

I was feeling low, insecure and dysphoric but my Mom wanted to go out for lunch and to run some errands. I agreed to go as my visit is almost over and I want to spend some more time with her. So glad I did. We had a lovely time and the weather in her part of Jersey is so nice today. Also, a waitress said "Here you go girls." when she dropped off our menus! The whole rest of our trip out was just icing on that cake.

Quote from: Dee Marshall on July 22, 2015, 02:40:30 PM
He also asked me how you know. I told him, "the doctor says to you that he needs to cut off your testicles. How do you react?" He responded, "no way in h&!!" I said, "you're not transgender".

Ok, I put my previous reply up before reading about y'all's joys. Sorry. But then I read this and guffawed. I am still chortling as I type this! So happy for you Dee but darn if that isn't the funniest test for transness I have ever seen! Effective too! This'll be the cherry in the icing on the cupcake of my day!

Quote from: amber roskamp on July 22, 2015, 12:29:15 PM
I got a kitty 

Awwwwwww, yay!  How old?  What "sex"?  (Lol, feels uncomfortable asking that in here.) What color?  Fur length?  Spayed/Neutered?  Declawed?  YAY!  I love kitties, haha.  I have 3.  Two orange tabby boys and a Siamese girl.  They are our babies!  Well until the real one shows up in the next 2 months, eek!

Last night, was, fan-farking-tastic.  I went out with a girlfriend that I just met a couple weeks ago.  She's absolutely wonderful to hang out with, we get along so well.  I got all dressed up in my girl clothes and we went dress shopping, picked up some stuff at Target and then went out to dinner afterward, ALL WHILE DRESSED AS A GIRL.

Nobody said anything negative that I heard, the world didn't stop spinning, and I didn't burst into flames.

It really helps having someone there to reinforce that you belong though.  She's so awesome.  I hate using that word, but it's true.

More info here if you'd like to read it: https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,192705.0.html

Quote from: Mado G on July 22, 2015, 09:27:17 AM
cuddly pets

Your profile pic :~D

Quote from: KristinaM on July 23, 2015, 07:35:04 AM
Awwwwwww, yay!  How old?  What "sex"?  (Lol, feels uncomfortable asking that in here.) What color?  Fur length?  Spayed/Neutered?  Declawed?  YAY!  I love kitties, haha.  I have 3.  Two orange tabby boys and a Siamese girl.  They are our babies!  Well until the real one shows up in the next 2 months, eek!

I beg to differ. I've been where you are. When the human baby arrives the furbabies continue to be your babies. My one human baby is long grown up and we have no current furbabies. We'll start looking after our trip in October. Can't before then because our potential sitters are going with us.

Quote from: KristinaM on July 23, 2015, 07:35:04 AM
Awwwwwww, yay!  How old?  What "sex"?  (Lol, feels uncomfortable asking that in here.) What color?  Fur length?  Spayed/Neutered?  Declawed?  YAY!  I love kitties, haha.  I have 3.  Two orange tabby boys and a Siamese girl.  They are our babies!  Well until the real one shows up in the next 2 months, eek!

she's a girl. She is spayed. She is 16 weeks old. Still has her claws.

This is her! She is a little devil 

I got my note from my therapist saying I do identify as female he wrote it so well! Its still sinking in for me yet and I don't think it's hit me yet.

Now I can start changing legal things next week!

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Quote from: amber roskamp on July 23, 2015, 03:19:03 PM

she's a girl. She is spayed. She is 16 weeks old. Still has her claws.

This is her! She is a little devil 

D'awwww, such a cutie pie.

Quote from: Zoetrope on July 23, 2015, 08:52:35 AM
Your profile pic :~D

Aww, thank you

Yours ain't so bad, yerself.

Congrats Raven!  Feels great doesn't it. Hugs.

Quote from: RavenL on July 23, 2015, 03:29:45 PM
I got my note from my therapist saying I do identify as female he wrote it so well! Its still sinking in for me yet and I don't think it's hit me yet.

Now I can start changing legal things next week!

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New gel polish and a fresh manicure makes everything happy! 

Patience, patience, stress, stress.  Was very disappointed with my E level (33.1) and the degree of feminization I've experienced after 3 mos.  Sent a note to my Endo last week expressing my feelings.  Expected push back. (Stress)  Received a response from him today saying his goal was < 200.  Will test again next week (5 mos.) He indicated that if the level was still low he would increase my dosage accordingly. Patience, patience.  Now the stress is gone. I'm so in a hurry,  but if having waited so long for this makes me so so anxious!  You know the feeling!