i had a really great day today. I just wanted to come on here and share it. I haven't come out to anyone except my wife. My therapist told me that I need to take some time to express who I really am, even if it's just for a little while at home in private. Well I decided to take his advice today. I was home alone today. The house was in desperate need of a clean, so I started cleaning the house. Only thing is, I was wearing these ridiculous 4" heels that I bought from a department store.   

I had the music turned way up vacuuming and mopping the house in these silly shoes and stockings. (I was wearing more than that! Jeans and shirt)

Anyway, I just felt right all day in my own thoughts. It was a good day.

Jayne

Well I'm glad you weren't in the all together!!

Thank you for such a nice post.

Don't you just love those days 

Katy xx

How is it that you can go from having such a great day to having a really bad day almost overnight?? Today I was having a really hard time having any positive thoughts. I was hating everything about myself. I kept telling myself that I wish I didn't have this dysphoria. My life would be so much better. The logical part of me is saying that continuing these negative thoughts serves no good purpose, so snap out of it! I keep worrying about what I am putting my wife through, and that she deserves so much better than me.

Well, I just got off the phone with my wife (I am currently at work), and she was just her happy and cheery wonderful self and my sister in law just sent me a bunch of photos of her beautiful 2 month old daughter was just laughing and smiling. Between my wife and my niece, I just got cheered up. 

It's amazing what trouble your mind can cause if you just let it run away with negative thoughts. I need to learn to put a stop to the negative thought train before it builds up too much momentum, because there is nothing good on that train. Curse these mood swings!! 

Anyway, I don't even know why, but I felt like sharing that.

Jayne

I read both of your posts, Jayne. It's amazing the difference betwwen each day and event. You're right; don't dwell on the negative because it doesn't do any good.