I had a strange night last night.   Made me wonder...

My wife and I went to her law firm's LGBT event last night at a West Hollywood gay bar and restaurant.  The rooftop bar had an amazing view and was mostly full of boystown hipsters.   After drinks, we went downstairs and had a nice dinner and conversation.   Actually, I think I did most of the talking, ended up cracking a lot of off-the-cuff jokes and ended up with a Flintstones theme song sing-along.   We had a gay old time. 

We went outside and waited for our Uber driver.   And waited... And waited...  Well, the bastard blew us off, so we saw it as a sign and walked over to the historic bar across the street because hey, that's what you do when your buzz wears off while waiting for a nonexistent ride... Anyway, we ordered some beers and watched the end of the Dodgers/Mets game and met these really fun (and drunk) girls from Sydney, Australia who were a blast to party with.  One of them noticed that my wife and I had matching wedding rings and asked us how long we'd been married.  After I told her "over 20 years", she had to ask me how that was even possible.  So I told her that I used to be a guy.   She almost didn't believe me and kept telling me how blown away she was and would never have guessed in a million years that I was trans.  I suppose her being 6'2" as well kinda helped.   When the game was over, we went outside and tried for another Uber. 

The Uber driver was mega-cool.   Long hair, tats, total metalhead.   He asked us what kind of music we wanted to hear, so we requested some metal. 

"Do you like Rainbow?"
"I freaking LOVE Rainbow!  I love love love Ritchie Blackmore."
"Me too.  You know the album 'Down to Earth'?"
"Uh, huh... With Graham Bonnet.  I have everything.  I'm not just a fan, I'm a musician too."
"Me too... I'm actually the guitar player in Graham Bonnet's band."
"No sh*t?!  That's a tough gig, considering he sung for Blackmore, Schenker, Malmsteen and Vai.  Seriously tough acts to follow!"
"Here's some new stuff." *plays new music*
"Wow, it's actually really good.  I'm sorta surprised because I heard him suck mightily in recent times."
"He finally got sober. *chuckles*  Anyway, we're playing the Whisky on Saturday.  Do you want to come?"
"Sure, we have nothing else on calendar."
"I'll put you on the list..."

How is it that I'm still quite the rocker magnet after transitioning?  I suppose our first Uber was meant to blow us off, because now we're seeing Graham Bonnet tomorrow night!

Finally found out why our house is being buzzed by a dozen or more helicopters.   Seems the cops shot a guy down the street who was randomly shooting a gun off.  At least they shot him dead before he killed anybody.

Ugh... And to think we live in the "nice" part of town.

I'm thinking that gardening in Zone 3a is a fool's errand.

I'm thinking that I suffer from paw in mouth disease.

I had a dream last night that had me waking up crying. How is it that my Dad disown in me doesn't bother me in the least. But seeing Caleb again in my dream just shatters my heart? I really do miss him. I don't get it. I've lost friends loads of times and not lost a wink of sleep. But Caleb continues to haunt me. He may feel he has no place in my life, but it seems he has no problem occupying a special place in my heart and dreams.

I'm thinking that sometimes we lose perspective. My close friends know I had a bad night last night, waves of depression hit like a tsunami.

What triggered it?

I gave my wife a kindle, she finally found a way to read after years of not being able too (she can't hold a book or turn the pages as she only has one functional hand). She has loved it, reading book after book.

Then one of her carers dropped it. It is broken and she was in tears, the gift of reading had gone.

It hit me how lucky I am, it struck me that my silly concerns are just that, silly. I fell into a funk upset for the loneliness and helplessness she is in.

I was ashamed of being such a selfish person.

She will have a new Kindle tomorrow.

I have a new attitude today.

Its funny, I found out today that the lady I am training is going to replace the lady that replaced me at the other store last year when I left abruptly...

Hilarious really. but the lady she will be replacing doesn't know it yet. So I have to keep reminding her that she is not to say anything to people about where she will end up, just that she's training, let them assume what they want beyond that.

Its still weird that they want me and only me to train her. Apparently they spoke highly of me, that's probably why they broke their own rule about bringing people back after they leave the company.

it's funny how one sleepless night can completely change your sleeping habits. i used to stay up until 3-4 am. nowadays i don't want to. I try to wrap things up at 12 am at the latest.

Quote from: Zóôt Threepwood on July 26, 2015, 04:24:54 PM
it's funny how one sleepless night can completely change your sleeping habits. i used to stay up until 3-4 am. nowadays i don't want to. I try to wrap things up at 12 am at the latest.

You'd better be in bed no later than 11 pm on a weeknight, young man!!!

Quote from: marsh monster on July 26, 2015, 04:40:04 PM
You'd better be in bed no later than 11 pm on a weeknight, young man!!!

i'm enjoying my holidays.

I cannot brain today I have the dumb.

Been thinking about photography. Got a tentative shoot lined up and she wants some tasteful boudoir shots done.  So I gotta plan some soft lighting setups.

Nice long weekend.

Saw a brief on 4 corners tonight on Trans people in Australia.
Looked not to be a positive thing but showing just how marginalised we are.
It brings out all of my fears any why I'm terrified by all this.

I fear to watch it.

Marmite is yum! 

I knew I was dog tired last night and that I would crash pretty hard, wasn't quite figuring on sleeping for 12 hours though...

Welp, I got my harddrive on my laptop cleaned up a little and repartitioned to make room for win 10 and already have my 7 upgraded to it. so far seems fast and not too much different, but still just exploring the new.

Quote from: marsh monster on August 09, 2015, 06:58:25 PM
Welp, I got my harddrive on my laptop cleaned up a little and repartitioned to make room for win 10 and already have my 7 upgraded to it. so far seems fast and not too much different, but still just exploring the new.

I got fed up with the whole Windows thing and changed to Debian Linux instead.

That my room's an absolute mess and I should get back to cleaning it. Been carting stuff around for nearly a decade now, so I've been going through and throwing out stuff I no longer need, or ever needed in the first place. I've gone from three full 52L tubs to one and a half, and also found heaps more notebooks than I ever thought I had. All empty or partially scribbled through. As the saying goes, a cluttered space is a cluttered mind and I can relate to that saying, at least with the room I spend the most time in. Not looking forward to working on my cupboard, I have all sorts of things in there ranging from tools to glow in the dark skeletons.

hmmm workout or fold laundry?

Why can't I just sleep in peace?