It wasn't my first time getting nabbed at a protest, but it was the first time I got put in a man's holding cell. It's an odd milestone, but I'll take it.

I can't wear a binder so this one cop kept sneering at me with a disgusted look on his face. Also I just started testosterone so I was a little more verbally aggressive (especially getting patted down) than I've been in the past. It was interesting because I felt calm and confident, rather than agitated. It was more a feeling of yeahwhateverness that made me mouthy.

A friend was freaked out and told me I should say I'm a girl next time. I won't repeat her reasoning since it warrants a trigger warning and I'm sure you can guess the gist of it. But she backed off when I said no thanks.

I almost don't even care that I can't bind. I'm on T and was arrested like a man. I had on a baggy button up and I felt like John Lurie in Down By Law. (Shhhh ... I look precisely nothing at all like John Lurie, but let me ride the feeling a little longer.)

How did starting T make you more verbally aggressive?

You know I honestly think about this kind of thing a lot lol.
I've never been arrested before, but I've had a time or two where I was mentally prepared to go to jail for assault if that's what it came down to. I haven't had my name and gender legally changed yet (I admit I'm lazy and am procrastinating cause I hate paperwork) so I wonder if I would be placed with men or women if I were for whatever reason sent to jail. Then I fear going to a mens jail because I haven't had lower surgery, but I certainly wouldn't want to go to a women's facility.

Guess I'll just keep staying out of trouble and won't ever have to worry about it lol.

Quote from: CaptainAFAB on July 24, 2015, 09:58:24 AM
It wasn't my first time getting nabbed at a protest, but it was the first time I got put in a man's holding cell. It's an odd milestone, but I'll take it.

I can't wear a binder so this one cop kept sneering at me with a disgusted look on his face. Also I just started testosterone so I was a little more verbally aggressive (especially getting patted down) than I've been in the past. It was interesting because I felt calm and confident, rather than agitated. It was more a feeling of yeahwhateverness that made me mouthy.

A friend was freaked out and told me I should say I'm a girl next time. I won't repeat her reasoning since it warrants a trigger warning and I'm sure you can guess the gist of it. But she backed off when I said no thanks.

I almost don't even care that I can't bind. I'm on T and was arrested like a man. I had on a baggy button up and I felt like John Lurie in Down By Law. (Shhhh ... I look precisely nothing at all like John Lurie, but let me ride the feeling a little longer.)

How badass is that?!  This might be the most awesome gender-affirming/passing story I've heard. 

I feels weird to rejoice in getting thrown in a cell, doesn't it?     In any case, now that you've done it, please don't go back in there.

Quote from: Contravene on July 24, 2015, 11:30:10 PM
How did starting T make you more verbally aggressive?

a lot of people find themselves quicker to anger once they start t.
pre-t i was definitely hot headed, but now i have random episodes of anger over the smallest things....though i am evening out at almost 9 months on t.
it won't be the same for everyone, but because of my anxiety/depression, my anger is more explosive than some.

Quote from: Contravene on July 24, 2015, 11:30:10 PM
How did starting T make you more verbally aggressive?

Well, like I said I was just more relaxed and confident feeling. I don't know if aggressive is even the exactly right word. I sure was mouthy though. Probably it's partially from just getting used to the routine of being arrested and man handled. But I have never taunted a cop quite that much.

I pulled the "ain't you gonna buy me dinner first" routine, and she was mouthy too, so it escalated to my describing the pig costume lingerie I was imagining. Uh ... yeah. I feel sort of bad because I'm not sure that wasn't sexist. But sort of not bad because, really, they kidnapped and caged me and my friends and they tried to break into my phone to boot.

Quote from: AeroZeppelin92 on July 25, 2015, 01:04:02 AM
You know I honestly think about this kind of thing a lot lol.
I've never been arrested before, but I've had a time or two where I was mentally prepared to go to jail for assault if that's what it came down to. I haven't had my name and gender legally changed yet (I admit I'm lazy and am procrastinating cause I hate paperwork) so I wonder if I would be placed with men or women if I were for whatever reason sent to jail. Then I fear going to a mens jail because I haven't had lower surgery, but I certainly wouldn't want to go to a women's facility.

Guess I'll just keep staying out of trouble and won't ever have to worry about it lol.

Although your safety is their responsibility while you're in custody, you're right not to put too much trust in that. Women's prisons aren't safe either, really -- the guards are not exactly gentlemen.

I don't know, being in housing would be a whole different story, yeah? A holding cell is easy.

I'm curious about the incident you alluded to, but will not ask you to say anything incriminating.

Quote from: Abysha on July 25, 2015, 01:26:31 AM
How badass is that?!  This might be the most awesome gender-affirming/passing story I've heard. 

I feels weird to rejoice in getting thrown in a cell, doesn't it?     In any case, now that you've done it, please don't go back in there.

Haha, thanks! I won't for another 6 months anyhow.

Quote from: CaptainAFAB on July 25, 2015, 11:41:19 AM
Well, like I said I was just more relaxed and confident feeling. I don't know if aggressive is even the exactly right word. I sure was mouthy though. Probably it's partially from just getting used to the routine of being arrested and man handled. But I have never taunted a cop quite that much.

I pulled the "ain't you gonna buy me dinner first" routine, and she was mouthy too, so it escalated to my describing the pig costume lingerie I was imagining. Uh ... yeah. I feel sort of bad because I'm not sure that wasn't sexist. But sort of not bad because, really, they kidnapped and caged me and my friends and they tried to break into my phone to boot.

That had less to do with you being on T and more to do with your impulse control. 

Quote from: wheat thins are delicious on July 26, 2015, 01:07:26 PM
That had less to do with you being on T and more to do with your impulse control.

I'm so grateful that you're here to explain my experiences to me. Otherwise I bet I'd be totally incapacitated by my inability to discern my own reality for myself.



Mod Edit- Messages that some can read as sarcasm are against TOS 5.

 

Ok folks, lets please keep it civil. Thanks
Mariah

Quote from: CaptainAFAB on July 26, 2015, 01:51:12 PM
I'm so grateful that you're here to explain my experiences to me. Otherwise I bet I'd be totally incapacitated by my inability to discern my own reality for myself.



Mod Edit- Messages that some can read as sarcasm are against TOS 5.

Unfortunately showing poor impulse control is not a side effect of testosterone.  It likely existed before and you just didn't realize it.  It's interesting to see the things people tend to attribute to testosterone usage that are in actuality just things they never noticed about themselves before. 

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