My mother just noticed my eyebrows. I plucked and trimmed them yesterday, maybe a little too aggressively. She has been on my case about my sort-of-longish-but-not-really-long hair and now this. oh BTW, and i was almost caught wearing a skirt yesterday and the show I am Cait was still on when she came in the door. I'm not sure if she has seen my painted toenails yet, but I am having a lot of close calls lately.

How far do you want to go with your transition?

Rachel wouldn't you be happier if you just came out to her and then didn't have to hide everything?

I hid for all the time I lived with my father not a good feeling inside.

I want to go all the way with my transition, but the thought of coming out like that is a little scary. I want to be living on my own before I come out unless I get my hormones and get to the point where I can't hide it before I move out. I think my parents are going to have a difficult time with this, so I want some space in case it goes sideways. I am in a situation, where I cannot bring myself to 'butch up", but coming out seems impossible. I leave around too many clues, but my parents don't notice most of them, or pretend not to notice, or notice and don't say anything to me.