Ever since last october i've felt I want to be a girl. Predating even that, i've always shown myself as a girl on the internet. I feel better when i think about myself as a girl. However, sometimes I don't feel like I want to be. Back in october I decided that if the feelings went away, i wouldn't talk about it. They did, but they went away the day my parents divorced. i guess i just didn't feel like thinking about that stuff anymore.  These feelings came back around 2 months ago, and I feel like I want to be a girl 75 percent of the time, and the rest of the time i don't really care. I'd like help with this, please.

Hi and welcome to Susan's. A therapist could help you sort this out. Many have started transition without knowing if they were transgendered or not or where they are on the spectrum, so your not alone. I look forward to seeing you around the forums. Good luck and Hugs
Mariah

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There are people who feel like they are "genderfluid" meaning they sometimes feel one way about their gender and sometimes feel another.

Most people who are transgender stay that way, but it can seem to go away when things are distracting you, so that you don't notice it. Then it seems to come back, because you're no longer distracted.

iWelcome to Susan's Place. In the end, only you opinion will matter and filling you needs will lead to happiness. Gender fluid is a possibility but for me if the transexual feeling I had were with me 100% of the time, I wouldn't have been able to function. I could drive them out of my head by concentration on something else. I never had to deal with strong outside emotions until after SRS so I am not sure what they would have done to my feelings. Something you might want to look at is youtube has a series call "The transition channel" defining this. The series is very well done and when I watch it, it took me back to the things we discussed in group therapy. I hope this helps clarify the subject for you.