So this is really really weird.

I'm 8 months on HRT.

Despite having decent physical development I haven't really felt much mentally. Honestly I think I did but never noticed it.

Lately though it's as if my world completely shifted. It's hard to explain but I notice I do things a lot differently now. While I did have an attraction to men that has grown stronger. I also feel more vulnerable in many circumstances.

Some of these can be placebo and social conditioning but I'm curious as to how long it took you to feel different mental effects.

I got euphoria the next day after starting patches. I though it might just be stress relief at the time, but I've had it again each time I get a new implant, starting a few days afterward. I'm really looking forward to it again. Its such a pity it doesn't last longer.

I lost my ability to get truly angry. I'm not sure when, but it I don't think it was too long. Its easier to cry now, but I still don't do it very often. That's definitely hormone related as I notice it more strongly when my hormones change a lot.

There's some more subtle effects, but its hard to say what they are or how long. I feel totally lacking in depression right now, and that's so wonderful. It just bought tears to my eyes writing that.

I don't feel any more vulnerable, but I'm still presenting male and perhaps that helps. It makes me feel more male is the main problem.

Quote from: iKate on August 03, 2015, 08:14:14 AM
So this is really really weird.

I'm 8 months on HRT.

Despite having decent physical development I haven't really felt much mentally. Honestly I think I did but never noticed it.

Lately though it's as if my world completely shifted. It's hard to explain but I notice I do things a lot differently now. While I did have an attraction to men that has grown stronger. I also feel more vulnerable in many circumstances.

Some of these can be placebo and social conditioning but I'm curious as to how long it took you to feel different mental effects.

I suspect it is genuine. HRT is very subtle and changes are gradual but eventually enough small changes mount up and cannot be ignored. Think of it like this - a burger bun has hundreds of sesame seeds. Take one off and no one notices. Take another one off and no one notices. Repeat ....

At some point between a sesame covered bun and one that has been picked clean, people will notice the changes. I think of HRT changes like that, slow and gradual until they pile up to the point where they simply stand out. I suppose it is a "Tipping point" thing.

When I compare myself to how I was a year or two years ago, it soon becomes apparent that I am very different from what I was like then, even though I never noticed the changes

A lot of it I think has to do with going full time and (mostly) just blending in in daily life now.