I have tomorrow off work  to go skiing-yaaaay powder day(I'm in NZ) and I had a great catch up with one of my girlfriends that I haven't seen for ages.

I relaxed on the sofa all day:-)

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What a strange day, after a tiresome week. My internet access is finally back - damn Aussie NBN. Long lurid conversations with my female staff about a guy who has just started in another lab, so cute

And I caught up with a friend who is Prof of Marine Biology at my Uni, he knows I am trans and over a coffee he asked me my long term work plans I told him I was thinking of retiring as I have a wonderful life I want to live (finally). He said 'Oh no' 'I can pay you for two days a week as a senior post doc, it is lower than your pay scale, but you could look after my students when I travel OS and I think a female Prof would be a steadying influence on the students.'

My first B.Sc (Hons) was in marine biology, maybe I will come full circle!

One favorite skirt, size 14 was so loose on me, added some pleats & took in the waist 5 inches, now it fits perfect. I'm healing up very well from my surgery. I so look forward to my GRS later this year for finally a normal body. Oh me, it's taken so long just for me to be a normal woman. Life is good.

This actually happened last night. My ex and I had tickets to go see a band we both really like. We get to the show and they go to scan the tickets and the machine made a not so good sound, well it turns out the tickets were for tonight and not last night. As we're leaving my ex says that she wont be able to make it tonight and the security guy  hears her. He asks us what happened and we explained and says "stay right here ladies" he comes back a couple of minutes later and lets us in for free! That never would have happened when I was presenting as a male.

I went to the range with the women's group, of which I am now a full member.

I had a good time and zero discussion of anything trans was made with me, only with the group leader who encouraged me to join and who knew me from before I transitioned.

I add diversity in two respects, one being trans, and another being of South Asian ancestry. I don't really make a big deal of those things but sometimes it's nice to change up things a bit.

Haven;'t found anything as of yet.

Quote from: michelle666 on August 04, 2015, 11:11:26 AM
This actually happened last night. My ex and I had tickets to go see a band we both really like. We get to the show and they go to scan the tickets and the machine made a not so good sound, well it turns out the tickets were for tonight and not last night. As we're leaving my ex says that she wont be able to make it tonight and the security guy  hears her. He asks us what happened and we explained and says "stay right here ladies" he comes back a couple of minutes later and lets us in for free! That never would have happened when I was presenting as a male.

That's great. I love all the things that we can enjoy as being a nice woman. Once long ago a woman friend of mine was having a wedding shower for her daughter. She said you can drop by if you want. I baked a really nice cake, dressed as nice as possible, before long a fit right in with all the women there. I was just one of the girls & that felt so nice. It's great to be a woman, feels so normal for me & always has. Have fun at the concert.

Lost enough weight to wear stretch jeans again.

I wrote down my femme name for the first time. Chills.

I got "ma'am'ed" at the store today, and I wasn't even presenting.

I'm still a bit in shock. I never expected this outcome. I just got off of the phone with my cousin. She was the last person I felt the need to come out to personally. Everyone else I love dearly, but they aren't people whose rejection would devastate me.

I DIDN'T LOSE ONE IMPORTANT PERSON TO THIS CONDITION, NOT ONE!

Everyone has been accepting. All of my family are looking forward to me coming back for a visit. My face is covered with tears of joy. Now I have to craft a Facebook post to tell the more distant friends and family, a simple announcement gently telling them this is what is and I won't accept argument or criticism. And, of course, offering to answer politely worded questions, but not loaded ones.

I tied my record for how many days it's been since last getting misgendered!  (12)

I was having quite the down and out kind of night due to just feeling, well lonely really. I have always coped by having a female presence online via MMORPG's for the most part. It has however over the past couple years increasingly become an emotional doubled edged sword that triggers equal amounts of dysphoria vs relief. Simply expressing my female self virtually is no longer enough. (it never really was)

I would very much love to meet other Trans people in my area. Find some new friends that I can really relate to with the hopes of making this journey more endurable. Arkansas is proving however to be a hard place to find that, sadly. Yet moving isn't much of an option currently. As such I was chatting with a close online friend. She has been and is my biggest supporter also the first person I came out to. She just always seems to know how to cheer me up so I thought I would share what she said to me tonight.

"...but YOU, who YOU are on the inside, who you are GOING to be on the outside...you're amazing. Why do you think countless people are drawn to you, in any game or virtual environment that you find? No matter where you are, when you feel safe in your virtual self, you explode with confidence. You are just now starting the real life track to match that feeling, even a little. Other people have felt the same, and the fact that you can see that, and see those feelings in YOURSELF, is just proof that you're doing the right thing. I know you can cope, I know you can deal, because you're...you."

A few kind words can go so far. =)

Quote from: Aubrey1day on August 05, 2015, 03:09:06 AM
I was having quite the down and out kind of night due to just feeling, well lonely really. I have always coped by having a female presence online via MMORPG's for the most part. It has however over the past couple years increasingly become an emotional doubled edged sword that triggers equal amounts of dysphoria vs relief. Simply expressing my female self virtually is no longer enough. (it never really was)

I too used to think that playing MMOs as my real self would satisfy the dysphoria enough to manage a 'real-life' existence, but eventually it just doesn't cut it. The big issue that I had was to convince people that knew me more than a collection of bits and bytes that I wasn't catfishing. I totally understand where you're coming from there. My coming out in 'meatspace' was a relief that I couldn't have imagined when I made my first character.

I got my ID changed finally.  It's got to be the worst dmv picture ever (I look super strung out) but it says female now.  I've been trying to get this done for years.  I'm so happy!

I am happy now that flax seed have such immediately calming effect on me.

Just returned from a visit with my Endo. E levels still checked out low (low 40's). He agreed to dbl. my dose.  I'm so glad. Now maybe I'll begin to experience some of the real effects of HRT. Tingling and sensitivity - bring it on!

Congrats girl!  Feels great doesn't it.  Nothing like taking out your license and seeing the F on it.

Quote from: Oriah on August 05, 2015, 11:48:37 AM
I got my ID changed finally.  It's got to be the worst dmv picture ever (I look super strung out) but it says female now.  I've been trying to get this done for years.  I'm so happy!

I saw a gender therapist for the first time today. She is a total rockstar. She is a member of the state trans mental health association. She also works in the local high school and one of her best friends that has an office next door to her is trans. She started an adolescent trans support group in the area. She is well versed in the subject and I'm on like totally cloud nine. I'm going to figure this out once and for all and this petite Jewish lady is going to be there the whole way.