Seriously. (wise asses can find another topic)
Ok. I was given tits and a pussy, so why the hell ain't I a woman?
What pretell was the reason for this?
It would've been fine if I were a girl. I would've ADORED this body if were a girl. So, why did this happen?
And why did it please the gods to make me PRETTY on top of all this?
Why did they see fit to give me perfect tits?


Nero  euthanasia is mercy

Well, the theory that makes most sense to me (it's sound, it's even been tested in animal models, and it is consistant with transsexual experiences) is that your mother's body, mistakenly 'believing' it was carrying an XY baby, splashed some testosterone on you when you were a six-week embryo and this caused your little developing brain to develop as a male brain, but, stupid mom's body, it didn't splash enough T on you to make you develop a normal male body.

This is more a 'how' answer and probably doesn't mean much for your existential angst problems, though. Sorry.

It also doesn't help when comments like 'transman' and 'transwoman' are used by the transgendered community and now also used now by NHS by psychologists/ psychiatrists in the gender field. I am certainly 'not' a transwomen, I am a female. Transwomen terminology is used to cover up the fact that some people are not percieved as their target gender so these worlds like 'transwomen' are invented to cover up the shortfalls in treatment available for some transsexuals.

I am a woman, I live as a woman and I don't use any other discriptions other than 'female'. Alienated words like 'transwoman' or 'transman' make me sick to my stomach. It make a person sound inhuman and it's not the goal of someone who has undertook and transition from male to female....

No optimism here, I promise. Cause something happened, be it genetic or hormonal, that gave us male brains. I cannot imagine being happy being seen as female. But, being a guy, and being on testosterone, I don't have a major issue with the body parts I have that most people think are owned by women. Most guys would love to have those parts. More toys to play with. Well, except the tits. They'd be cool to play with. They are unfun to wear.

It's just that you have conflicting body parts. The brain is a body part. Unfortunately, it's the one that has had a bad rap, but I think it's way more affected by chemicals, hormones, and genetics than most people give it credit for.

Dennis

Quote from: Nero on December 06, 2007, 08:57:18 PM
Seriously. (wise asses can find another topic)
Ok. I was given tits and a pussy, so why the hell ain't I a woman?
What pretell was the reason for this?
It would've been fine if I were a girl. I would've ADORED this body if were a girl. So, why did this happen?
And why did it please the gods to make me PRETTY on top of all this?
Why did they see fit to give me perfect tits?


Nero  euthanasia is mercy

Nero, I have no more of an idea of why you were not made a woman than I have for why I wasn't made a man.

Procreation is not a perfect process.  It is a part of humanity which in itself is not perfect.  Its quirks and behaviours are not predictable.  They are merely analyzed by statistics.  What is the chance of a child being born transsexual?  1 in 100?  That's fine, and there might even be a valid distribution curve for the occurrences but even that is theoretical.

For me, the fact is that it happened.  Doc's posting answers how but I have no answer as to why.  I was conceived on New Year's Eve and I have no clue if a different occasion for whoopee would have had a different result.

Bottom line:  it's the luck of the draw, as I see it.  I endured until I could do something about it and I smiled my way through the day because no one gives a rat's as#.  They all have their own problems.  At least I thought they did until they started looking strangely at the six-foot-tall, substantially-made woman with the baby-fine blonde hair that hates to hold a style.

That's what I tell myself.  I hope that in its own stupid little way it helps, Nero.

Wing Walker

Quote from: Nero on December 06, 2007, 08:57:18 PM
Seriously. (wise asses can find another topic)
Ok. I was given tits and a pussy, so why the hell ain't I a woman?
What pretell was the reason for this?
It would've been fine if I were a girl. I would've ADORED this body if were a girl. So, why did this happen?
And why did it please the gods to make me PRETTY on top of all this?
Why did they see fit to give me perfect tits?


Nero  euthanasia is mercy

I was just thinking, maybe the best thing to do would be transplant MtF brains with FtM bodies.

Well, I like my body. Hell what can you expect form a 62 year old body. I have been girlified sufficiently and I am at peace with myself. And dang it, the guys still stare at me when I walk by in a knee length sun dress in the summer. I use to tell people that were eyeballing me to take a pitcher it may last longer. Now I almost feel like handing out loonies  the guys eyeballing me.

Cindy

Exactly, everything would be fine if I was a girl...wait, then it wouldn't be me.

No answers. It certainly would've made for a lot less pain in my life if I could be happy being a man... oh well, g-d or the universe works in mysterious ways and here I am trying to figure it all out. It really does sometimes feel like a test of mythical proportions.

y2g

I think that is a question that almost everyone of us has asked.  WHY, why, why???

I have never come up with a reason.  I am not sure there is one.

Sarah L.

Quote from: Nero on December 06, 2007, 08:57:18 PM
It would've been fine if I were a girl. I would've ADORED this body if were a girl. So, why did this happen?

I hear ya. Heck, I'm tall, lean, never had to exercise or watch my diet and STILL had a pretty great male body.

Oh well

I'll get flamed to heck and back for saying this, but *I* personally believe this happened because I chose it. I'm not sure why, although I SUSPECT it was like tying a string on a finger to remind you of something. GID is so relentless, so pervasive, there's just no way to escape it. And THAT has kept me "awake" in this dream, never letting me be lulled into the soothing normalcy of this world, keeping me constantly aware that I AM dreaming this life.

I also tend to think it's fairy mischief, as we have an uh.... history, lol...

~Kate~

Hi Kate.
I must say that I am not a stranger to this notion of because I chose it.
I have encountered that statement in many other boards I go to. I just wasn't expecting to hear it mentioned here. That is a label for a certain phenomena that is not very easy to wrap ones mind around.

Cindy

QuoteI'll get flamed to heck and back for saying this, but *I* personally believe this happened because I chose it. I'm not sure why, although I SUSPECT it was like tying a string on a finger to remind you of something. GID is so relentless, so pervasive, there's just no way to escape it.

I've thought a LOT about this lately and I might be saying the same thing Kate, and I agree with you,
but I don't think I "chose it", in my case "I chose to deal with it". And I chose to deal with it
because as you say it is so relentless, so pervasive.

I know for some it might be possible to live as a male for a long time, maybe their entire life. I did for 28 years
but now I see how much it has affected every area of my life.

Nero: I'll trade you my perfect parts for your's any day, too bad it's not that easy 

Amanda

Quote from: Nero on December 06, 2007, 08:57:18 PM
Seriously. (wise asses can find another topic)
Ok. I was given tits and a pussy, so why the hell ain't I a woman?
What pretell was the reason for this?
It would've been fine if I were a girl. I would've ADORED this body if were a girl. So, why did this happen?
And why did it please the gods to make me PRETTY on top of all this?
Why did they see fit to give me perfect tits?


Nero  euthanasia is mercy

There is no objective answer to the question, "Why?"  The only thing any of us can do is impose our own answer on the unanswerable question.  So whatever you find that subjectively satisfies your sense of rightness, is your answer.