OMG, it's here. Finally after all these years. I am crying now because I can't believe it. Oh God, thank you,thank you, thank you. All the pain, all the doubt, all the fear wondering if I was crazy, I am not. I am really pretty now, i feel like Aqualung with snot running down my nose. This is without a doubt the most emotional moment in my life. Damnit I can't stop crying ! Thank you everyone here for keeping the hope alive for all o us, mtf or ftm. We can do it ! Jolene