Quote from: Joanna50 on August 16, 2015, 03:43:51 AM

Wow, me too. I had a question about this a few months ago. I did not have anything traumatic happen and don't know what would have severely stressed me out. I know I tried my sisters things on by 8 or 9 and continued cross dressing off and on to varying degrees my whole life but didn't think it was a sever stressor. 'Course it was the early 70s when I was 8...

Take care and keep coping as needed.

With warmth,
Joanna

I do intend to stay I am not going anywhere, coping is the only way I am surviving right now. I'm actually studying psychology for college right now so I know something of the topic. During serve emotional trauma your brains way of coping is to more or less shut of your memory receptors in order to protect you from the event. I am also unable to form any long term memory, as such I don't really know when my gender dystonia really started.

I have a blog and I write...just anything that comes into my head...I don't publish it all but it soothes me to write it down, Much of it I have never read a second time but it is almost as good as talking when it comes to helping the Dysphoria. Crop tops under my shirt, got my other ear pierced, start using moisturiser on a regular basis, clear nail polish and for the really brave a bit of eyeliner and concealer...only done the eyeliner once and nobody appeared to give me a second look..it was just a quick run over to the shops.

Writing is good.  I just about beat a typewriter to death when I was going through transition.

once again thank you for the suggestions everyone, every little bit helps. Writing is something that helps me tremendously, I also like to write short verse poetry and that also seems to help. The clear nail polish is something I already do what also helps is that I Paint my toenails as well and as those are covered most of the time I can paint them any color I want , I have also began experimenting with my hair so that is also a plus. I just have to convey again how grateful I am for each and everyone of you on this forum knowing, there are people out there like me is one of the only things that is keeping me alive right now. Once I work up the courage to get a therapist I am sure things will get better from there, after this is the beginning of a very long journey and everyone here helps me stay on the path. (:

Alecia (Micah)