So I honestly had a crappy day yesterday, bringing my daughter to different ERs. But I did have a dental cleaning and the conversation I had with the hygienist was just lovely. One of the ways I used to deny my dysphoria was by being a total slob. Chew fingernails, eat everything in sight, lack dental hygiene. I figured if I was grotesque enough, I'd lose all hope of becoming a woman. Well 10 months ago I beat the fingernail thing, then 8 months ago I changed my nutritional and exercise regimen and have lost 80 lbs. These last few months I've really concentrated on my dental health (for a pretty smile, right?)
Well I discussed this with the hygienist and she said that she is a nail biter and she hates it. So I showed her my nails and she goes "OH I want nails like yours!!!" I, of course made a gender joke about not wanting to hear that as a dude (hi defense mechanism, nice to see you again), but on the inside I literally swooned. It was the highlight of my week seriously.