In reply to Sharon, I had two excuses, lack of information and lack of money. Once I decided to come out in 1973 it took me until 1982 to have my surgery. It took working my way through three therapist (and they were hard to find in those days) and burning more money faster than I should have had to. It was only a lucky meeting in the Endo's office with somebody under treatment with my third therapist that gave me the program I needed to transition. At that point I started voice therapy, beard removal and learning how to present as female. To move to cross living took about two years and then it took another two years in order to rebuild my savings for surgery.

None of you need to face what I did because the information that delayed me is here free for the asking. With this web site I could have cut between 4 and 5 years off my transition time and may have had even better results than I did.
Did I have fear, tons of it but I understood that the transition needed to happen for my own sanity and the sooner the better. Delaying your transition is putting off your happiness exchanging it for more misery. I picked the easy road ending the pain the fastest way I could.

Quote from: cheryl reeves on August 10, 2015, 10:30:45 PM
the love i have for my wife and will not jepordize our marriage...31 yrs ago i thought about it but i met my soon to be wife and that ended that thought...im lucky though that she is ok with me dressing up time to time to calm myself down..

I find myself in a similar boat, though only married half as long.
I was thinking about it then met my wife.

Ironically, though I've know for years, she's starting to identify as a transman.

15 years ago I settled on being a breeder and mothering a mess of kids.

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Quote from: EmilyRyan on July 09, 2015, 11:50:07 PM
Homelessness caused by rejection. Though I have a job I doubt I still could afford a place to live 

Sorry hun, I know it's hard but you got to choose life even though the prospect may seem difficult at times.

you'll get there <3

Quote from: Clever on April 07, 2015, 07:59:50 AM
I've spent so much of my life setting myself aside and sacrificing for others that these feelings are pretty much my baseline. I've gotten very good at just existing and living in discomfort if it means not rocking the boat. I really, really really want to figure out how to get past this.

It's like your reading my life story. I wanted to transition when I was 14, but I was frightened by the thought of telling anyone how I really felt. Now I'm at a point where I am so unhappy going through every day pretending to be a man that I have to transition. Only now I have an 8 year old daughter to worry about. How will it affect her and moreover, will her friends alienate her because I'm different. I am very very slowly making progress by dropping very subtle hints (mostly by accident). But I don't want to wait too long. At 8, she is still likely to be more open and accepting than she would be in middle or high school.

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MWAH!!
Kayla Marie

I am 33 I haven't got any money currently unable to make an effort to find a job I have slot of experience in construction boats I Capitaned one for three years I worked in heavy equipment but I hate my life and every time I try to start transition I have so much anxiety I sweat and shake and run then shut down for several days I feel like I am slowly failing my self and my life is spiraling out of control I don't know where to go from here I can't stop trying and I don't know how to start I am so unhappy I want to find some where to hide and just wait

Quote from: jessica32 on August 31, 2015, 09:02:48 PM
I am 33 I haven't got any money currently unable to make an effort to find a job I have slot of experience in construction boats I Capitaned one for three years I worked in heavy equipment but I hate my life and every time I try to start transition I have so much anxiety I sweat and shake and run then shut down for several days I feel like I am slowly failing my self and my life is spiraling out of control I don't know where to go from here I can't stop trying and I don't know how to start I am so unhappy I want to find some where to hide and just wait

you can dress full time without hrt,and there are women who do work construction and are just as good as their male counterparts. i suggest you find a good gender therapist who can help you over come your depression so you can find a happy place.

I've not read the whole of this thread but it's an interesting question that was posed back in April, with some great informative replies

For me, a transition that takes a few years isn't so much of a problem as long as I know I'm on that road. As mentioned today, even wearing female clothes is a starter, but I also love the tingle in my breasts. I look down and 'know' it's happening and that does a heck of a lot to stem my dysphoria.

As some of you will know I intend pursuing an orchiectomy first before a full SRS. This is for a number of reasons:

1. Transitional: Again it's about the process & that one will cut off the testosterone source;
2. Surgical: I don't really want major invasive surgery right now;
3. Practical. I travel a lot including into remote places. I just can't see myself maintaining a dilation regime
4. Toxicological: Key to me is not being too long on toxic AA medication
5. Orientational: (I'm stretching the 'als' here ). I'm not fussed about having vaginal sex, at least not at the moment.
6. Financial: I simply don't have the money for full SRS right now

Maybe there is also a bit of 7. Familial, but I don't think so too much. I don't strip naked in front of my family