I am in a REALLY tricky situation....
I need to try to lose weight. The way my weight sits (breasts, tummy, hips) causes me really extreme dysphoria. I am starting testosterone soon, but most of the research I have done leads me to believe that I should start trying to lose the weight before I start.
The thing that makes this so tough is that I am recovering from an eating disorder (EDNOS, binge/starve cycle) that is a lot of the reason I am so overweight. My metabolism is completely shot from subsisting on not enough food for a month or so at a time.
A lot of the advice I find online is either things I am already doing (move, eat your vegetables, limit fats/sugars/white carbs, eat smaller but more frequent meals), or so restrictive that it is really not feasible or healthy. I know from experience that reducing my intake below about 1200 cal/day results in a "hungry high" that is way too similar to the feeling I got from my starve cycles, and therefore a very slippery slope.
Does anyone have any good resources? Anyone else been in a similar place? I am a little lost, and really frustrated. I tried talking to my doctor, but she subscribes to the "if you're fat, any loss is good loss" train of thought.