Gonna do a little vent here...
The last year I've been trying desperately to shed weight, I thought it might help my dysphoria- I'd have less of a chest and maybe my curves wouldn't look visible and I'd look more masculine in baggy clothing. So I cut down unhealthy food, take away at Uni, and started walking, but I didn't lose anything, and exercising was hard because my body was constantly in pain for some, strange reason.
Cut forward to two months back and I got diagnosed with an Underactive Thyroid; got put on a low dosage of medication, suddenly everything made sense, why I couldn't lose weight, why I was constantly tired, why I was constantly in pain...
Two months on and my weight is the same as it ever was, even with more exercise, even healthier eating, and medication that's meant to help out.
I was planning on joining a gym when I get back to Uni in a week or two, but my chronic pain hasn't improved much either- my doctor, physiotherapist and family all think I have fibromyalgia as well as an Underactive Thyroid...
Usually people get pretty shook up about having one or two life-long medical conditions (understandably!!) but I'm more shook up and mad that I just can't seem to lose weight no matter what I do.
The weight really isn't helping my dysphoria either. I'm classed as obese and I really feel like my weight lessening my ability to pass as a dude- it makes my figure and face look way more feminine.
I just wish there was something I could do, even losing a little bit of weight, but honestly I only ever seem to gain it. Damn broken thyroid and damn dysphoria D|